. . . I feel like I'm getting talked about behind my back by people and I just kinda. Hate the feeling.

Glitchcoffin my beloved <3

These two scare my together. That's all I can say

#spamcoffin #aftercleaveau #deltaruneau #tennaau #tenna #deltarune

Where have I been?

Drawing doomed toxic yaoi of @paninimartini.bsky.social Failsafe Tenna and my addison "Spamton" (Uni)

I've been napping all day to distract myself from the pain and couldn't go to classes cause of the er visit/sleeping

I'm just existing now. Life really went no drawing doomed yaoi for you.

Haha yes'nt

So last night they discharged me saying that it was just a really bad sprain

I had to call the er doc back and my foot is actually fractured and I had to go back to the er to go get a boot

And I might need surgery on it because of the bone that's broken being important to walking.

I'm in the er. Potentially broken foot.

Today is my 19th birthday if anyone cares. . . .

Ty!!!

Today is my 19th birthday if anyone cares. . . .

. . . Welp! I already have a referral to a neurologist and I have a brain mri due to my extremely bad fainting spell in December

I was doing research on epilepsy for one of my characters and I was reading through the difference types of seizures that can happen and going.

. . . Wait a second. That sounds an awful lot like what I'm currently going through myself.

Especially absence seizures.

. . . I feel very. Alone? I think that's the word.

. . . My birthday is coming up but the people I wanted to celebrate it with well. I fucked up and they want nothing to do with me.

I just. . . Idk. I just don't see the point in celebrating anymore. I've lived another year but. I have low qol.

OF COURSE

We really do. I need to brush up on it quite a bit though. A lot of the history I remember right now is Greek mythology and WW2.

Slowly appears.

I love seeing your history rambles. Maybe because I myself like studying the history of diseases and science. But I really love the ancient Rome rambles

I myself was very passionate in Greek and Egyptian history

I'm now 99% sure I fucked up everything and now I feel like a shit person and I wish I could turn back time. . .

Drops a couple wip. . .

This weekend I need to get a head start on my birthday art so that I'm not rushing to complete it the night before.
Considering I have less than 2 weeks to complete it.

Drops a couple wip. . .

I'm a wee bit of an idiot.
I forgot to wash my hands after I prepped my snake's rat.
I lifted her hide to inform her that her dinner has arrived and she struck my hand.
Entirely my fault. I should have washed my hands.

I know I shouldn't, but it's just how my brain has been, especially since my fall.
It's hard to take things step by step because it's been so conditioned into me to be all go go go without many breaks or time to break things down.
Eventually we'll get through this true. But not in the near future

I know. It's mostly intrusive thoughts and the feeling I fucked up everything while in a pain filled daze that I'm still piecing together things in my head.
And stress getting to me I suppose.

I'm tired. And feeling isolated like normal.

But I should stop complaining. Not like anyone listens or cares how I'm feeling much.

Yk. I think my parents liked the idea of being a parent but not actually raising the kid.

My dad is more like a friend than a parent.

Hell, my sister sees me as her parent instead of my dad.

Jokes on you, I'd kill for that

Praying Mantis' are some of my favorite bugs

I feel. Isolated I guess

. . . Oh. I should have expected that.

I'm just gonna stop giving updates on my life. Not like it's getting any better anyways

Idk. I don't want people to worry about me. It's all confusing.

My head hurts. I'm just gonna try and figure shit out in the morning when I'm not tired.

. . . You know. I think I'm more fucked up than I thought. I've been acting like I remember everything but it's all a blur.

I had an exam for ASL and I didn't know any of the signs yet muscle memory kicked in. I think.

Idk. Most I remember rn is fainting and hitting my head.
And Christmas