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It’s raining and I heard thunder…
Now we’ve got the issue of “you can’t turn on anything attached to a cable, cuz it’s gonna get fried by lightning” paranoia…

So we are not turning on the laptop. (Battery is so busted, it doesn’t work if not plugged in to the charger.)

So no art.

Electricity in the bathroom doesn’t work anymore lmao. It’s so dark in here. Hopefully dad knows how to fix it.

The hairdryer just exploded while mom was using it. Lmao.

(It has been stinking like burnt hair every time ya turned it on, and the thing was 15+ years old.

Just buy a new one already…

This isn’t helping either. But at least I brought it up somewhere.
Maybe I’ll manage to forget about it, once it’s out of my system? Prolly not.
I’ll be sure to complain again in two days.
And nobody will be happy about this. And I will lay in bed and be sad.

I can’t even do anything fun. There is no more fun.
Everything is a task now.
I am failing at life.
What’s even the point???
All I do is complain and waste resources. And nobody cares.
Everyone irl vents to me and they don’t wanna listen, they just yap. So I go to social media, to be antisocial.

Been procrastinating all day because I am so angry about it.
I don’t wanna have to wash the dirty dishes again… I had to do it three days in a row, took one day off, washed the dishes again, took yesterday off, and now there is more pots and a frying pan and I didn’t even use those myself…

Would like to vent about the dirty dishes again. It’s like that’s all my life is about right now and I wanna fucking end it but there is no space for a dishwasher, also they are expensive and also I have trust issues. What if it leaks?
So yeah,,, gotta scrub.
Adult life is one big trauma dump.

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Where am I supposed to fit “drawing” in there??
There isn’t enough time in a day.
I need too much rest to function.
And then I gotta repeat the same stuff I already did because things never stay clean and people keep talking to me and I can’t just disappear into the void because of responsibilities.

Every day is:
- cleaning,
- resting from cleaning,
- socializing,
- resting from socializing,
- playing Genshin Impact
- resting from reading too much dialogue in Genshin Impact
- bunny snuggles
- bunny struggles cuz someone is tearing up the carpet again
- taking care of basic human needs
- sleep

Good chance I’ll be too tired to do anything later. I love looking like a liar, just cuz nothing works in my favor. Listening to people is exhausting.
When will I get to draw???
I hate drawing but I gotta draw.
But there is literally no time to draw,,,, even tho I’m unemployed and should have time.

Jokes on me, she’s staying the night cuz bus drivers are on strike.
She came over with bubble tea and talked about her life struggles n situationship for 3 hours straight and I just had to sit and take it lmao.

(Her therapist is on vacation.)

Mom has to go to work and the dishes are still there… so yeahhh… it’s gonna be me cleaning plates again today as well.
I’ll get up and just do it now, while the dog is napping.
Today is gonna be another waste.
How do normal people deal with this shit and still get work done??

I don’t even wanna wake up anymore, knowing that there will be dirty dishes that I’ll have to clean with my bare hands until the end of time.

Dog is coming over until 3pm,,,
I gotta clean the bunny litterbox and maybe wash the dishes (if they don’t magically disappear),,,,,
Then there might be a chance my lil sis will visit to steal food,,, and depending on when she leaves / if she arrives… I might draw afterwards.

Family dinner has left us with more dirty dishes,,,, I’m going to fucking perish.
I ain’t cleaning all that. Goodnight.
Gon be digesting and gaming till I nod off. Screw this.

Laptop took forever to boot up, so now I don’t wanna draw anymore.
I hate this. 😭
Why is my mood so fickle??

Maybe I’ll draw after dinner…

Omg the dog was picked up and I got a total of 3 hours to be productive before dinner hits.
Gotta shower real quick and then get to sketching.

And once big sis or her gf come to pick up their dog, it’ll be late and I’ll be too tired from all the barking,,,,
So I guess I’ll resume drawing on the weekend.

Dog is coming over later,,, plus we got family dinner.

So I prolly won’t draw today.

Won’t draw tomorrow either, cuz dog is coming over then as well.
Wish I could do multitasking, but the dog keeps trying to eat bunny food and poop… so I gotta keep him out of the room… so I can’t get to my laptop.

Should prolly draw something for the 15th zexal anniversary…

I just washed the dishes by hand for the third day in a row. With pots and pans in every batch. I deserve to waste money today.

Well it’s either 23-30€ for one singular guaranteed Shingetsu orrrr I could buy 5 packs of random guys for ~50€ with fees who will be shipped in May and there might be an orange lad or not.
Maybe I’ll get 5 Girags. Who knows.
Anywayyy don’t look at me.

Oh fuck I spend the day doomscrolling again.
I’m gonna shower and beat myself up.

Ugh

When we went shopping, I left my money in the bag and lil sis took the bag but didn’t take out my money 😩😩😩
Now I can’t buy groceries.
Back to bed I go.

I’m just gonna clean the bunny room while mom is occupying the bathroom to shower. She has been up for hoursss and only juuust now decided to get ready. I’m so glad she has to go to work in three hours. I can’t stand her presence right now.
Everything is pissing me off today. I am sorry for venting.

Wanted to go out on a walk or something but it’s raining too much and the construction site is too noisy and mom had the audacity to ask “what’s wrong”, as if she wasn’t part of the fucking problem.

And my tummy acid is still acting up!!! I bet my spleen is gonna explode one of these days.

Why is my mom still talking to herself out loud??? Oh my fucking god just be quiet!! I am trying to think over here!!!
I hate this!!!
Now she is grinding her teeth together and making horrid squeaky noises!!