my babies

ive got a really bad feeling and I cant shake it and im shaking and idk i have a really really bad feeling about going back to my home town

usually if im due to go somewhere I will have packed my bag a week in advance.. I got in 48 hrs and I haven't packed yet
I dont want to go

im so anxious I feel sick.

honestly it was so bad! I was sick over a month and had two courses of meds and it still wouldn't go. ive got so much to write and catchup on but im having difficulty and now im gonna be busy for a while

uhm.. so i am still alive, just not really active on here or twitter that much. I promise my fics will continue! im just recovered from a sickness I caught in the first week of feb... Its caused me a writing block/ slump but chap 2 of desire will come!

heavy sighing

So, i finally logged into AO3 today after a long time to find that my password has been leaked in a databreach on another site, and i have to change it. Where is the email? How long ago was this, and why was I only informed when I logged in?

This is a PSA to CHANGE YOUR AO3 PASSWORD just in case!

"sorry, i havent finished a project in months, i've been at war with myself"

remarkably appropriate meme

oh so my shuffle wants to see me suffer? okay.

I should have never of taken my emotional support mark off my bag last week..

like.. what do you do when you feel like you dont belong anywhere

today isnt a great day if you can tell but twitter is annoying me once again and I dont even go on there.

ik I can be a bit weird and I have my Daisy and Fall but I just get a strange sense of nit belonging sometimes.. its mainly why im not active anywhere anymore because I just dont know what to do with myself anymore. im annoying, I know and it makes me sad because I really want to make more friends

I really do want to make more friends on this side of the random but I find it really hard. so hard. im not good at making friends and I often dont engage first or message first because im scared that people dont like me but are too nice to say it or that im bothering people.

Mark and nct really helped me get through lockdown. and when he was separated from dream the devastation everyone felt, dream included. im so very sad. but im also happy for him, he deserves to fight for himself and what he wants. but 7 dream forever.

its good that you know when to remove yourself from it

HEHE TYTY! I must do my thread of toploaders some day

the toxicity tends to rise around cb :(

my loooooove

tyty! Im gonna put all my toploaders in a thread soon like I had on my old account

DESIRE - mnsng
Chapter One.
— please read synopsis and warnings in the bleet below
archiveofourown.org/works/77522956

now im back here, I'll redo my thread with all my toploaders