sad

The Horror of Being a Story YouTube video by Hollandspiele

“i want people to know that i was here” youtu.be/-d7GdgiZs4I

today i will have: big salad.

delicate Andromache on ships over the salt
sea. And many gold bracelets and purple
perfumed clothes, painted toys,
and silver cups innumerable and ivory.
So he spoke. And at once the dear father rose up.
And news went through the wide town to friends.

buzzy little brain fog buzz buzz buzz

what the fuck ever

yeah you are

yeah

why am i so bad at recognizing this

eek

the accumulated detritus of

but everyone loves when i’m useful

.

this is all wrapped up with audrey, of course

been thinking a lot about the time i got covid and accepting that sara’s treatment of me was shitty and traumatic

yeah. yeah

i’m soooo miserable

of no use

i want to forget everything

😭

i would not be this cruel

being broken is at least being something

if only i could drink from this sweet lethe

can someone tell me when she takes 妹妹 out of her bio

yeah. yeah

it hurts

they’re mainly “we’re not all on a first name basis, diva”

i blocked audrey

i have to make my stupid little noises or i can’t get off

amusingly, n*rthsky emailed me an invite code overnight while it was running (you could not pay me to go there)