i feel bad my bf is gonna have to see me drop so much weight and the in may when he sees me again im gonna be way skinnier but i need to im sorry

basically i just have to work as hard as possible

i can lose 32lbs by then if i have a deficit of 2000 every day, which i can do through walking and working out every day and eating less than 200 cals or fasting until may. then ill be 114, im not sure if its possible to lose the rest when im with my bf in summer but if i can ill eat less

wctually itsmore like 53

thats 58~lbs to lose can i do that before may if i lock in?

92lbs i need to be 92lbs

his friend is 48kg so i have to be 42-45

when im home i wanna diet like crazy so im small when i come see him in summer

like i thought i clogged that mf for a sec too

took a nasty dump in his toilet save me i hate shitting at someone elses house

ive lost weight cuz of all the walking with bf #winning

midterms r mostly over its fine

okay i can fix this ill just eat nothing else until im with my bf

i think i gained cuz of midterms fuck im about to purge i cant do this

bf ordered me breakfast AGAIN im gonna get so fat 😭😭😭

i ate so much the past two days cuz of midterms kms

why do i always do everything wrong

cheap excuse ik but my pants r looser so its fine its working however slowly

i ate breakfast today solely bc i have to paint and it takes a lot of energy and i have to makeup w bunch of work and midterms r due sunday so i have no choice but to

i shouldnt have eaten cup noodles im gonna sob

jealousy's a bitch

i ate so much today help i was feeling rlly sick and weak so i had a sandwich AND spaghettis i should fast tmrw to makeup for it

y is this guy folloeing me uhh

welp

i forgot my watch fuck

i triggered myself so bad looking at these pics nvm im done eating twice a day im fasting till further notice

TW//BC
i miss being skinny so bad (old pics)

i stopped posting pics of myself cuz i got fat :(

WHERES THE FUN WHERES THE WHIMSY i mean i consider myself awkward and bad at conversation but damn

bfs friends are so bad at holding conversations they all just sit quietly in call muted like you would never guess these people have known each other since childhood