Imagine being blessed with 3 beautiful healthy children, the most amazing loving husband and the life you've always dreamed of but still crying almost daily because you'll never have that 4th baby you dreamed of having 🤣😭

Art by • Jean deMers

I'm in such a bad flare-up and burn out is coming add PMDD because I'm due my period, on top of that it's coming up to two years since my missed miscarriage, infact yesterday would've marked 2 years since hearing the pregnancy wasn't viable 😔

The amount of tired im feeling isn't funny anymore. My body also hurts 🫠

Currently clenching my arse cheeks and praying to the gods I dont shit myself rn as my boob barnical will not unlatch and keeps waking whenever I move 🫠 send prayers!!

It's been 5 months because I once again forgot about the app so here is my face! Also my baby is now 8 months old 😭

Genuinely forget about this app 😂 anyway we took our 11 week old ti bloodstock over the weekend and she was amazing!! 🥹

Trying to find alternative breastfeeding friendly clothes is so annoying 😩 I have so many band shirts but I don't like them draping over her especially in this heat!

Time flies!! I can't believe she is already 2 weeks old! Also can you please start gaining weight and not lose anymore 🥲 She hasn't half worried is these last two weeks 😩

They took my fucking PIP nothing had changed other than an extra diagnosis of autism and fibromyalgia and they took my fucking PIP! How am I going to survive? I have 2 children, one on the way very soon. We use my PIP for bills! This is bullshit! 😭

Honestly heartbreaking having to take out my nipple piercings!! I've had them since I was 18, I'm now 31 😭😭 if I'm unable to breastfeed now I'm rioting!

There was a specific NYX one I loved and they discontinued it 😭😭 some make my eyelids sticky and some crack so I struggle. Might have to try this one thank you!

Please tell me why there is a national front party running for the local election in the town over from me? (Luckily not my voting area) 😅 I thought reform were bad enough!

Butt in my ribs 😩 also RIP nipple piercings I've had since I was 18 😭😭

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Who thought it would be a good idea for two indecisive neurodivergent people to choose baby names 😂 first name set in stone from very early. Middle name? We cannot decide 😂😭

The algorithm on here absolutely hates me 😂😂 anyway here's last week's bumpdate 32weeks not long until we meet our baby girl 🥰 and we are still not in agreement of a middle name 😂😂

I'm getting to that stage of pregnancy where I don't want it to be over but also can't wait for her to be here 🥺 bitter sweet!

Omg the acid reflux is actually disgusting!! My throat is on fire and nothing is helping 😩

I forgot how dehumanising the PIP assessment is! I didn't even do the assessment my husband did it for me because he is my appointee and it was awful 😩

That's the first load of baby clothes in the wash 🥺

I need to clean my mirror but I'm 30 weeks tomorrow! 5-10 week countdown (or 12 if she's feeling lazy) We also have everything ready to pack our hospital bags! 🥺

I am fully over catching absolutely every cold going about! I have not had a break for about 3 weeks now 🫠 Pregnancy and chronic illness really does just flatten your immune system to zero!

To think come Thursday, I'll be on my 10 weeks count down until El is here 🥺 (if she's anything like her sister possibly 5 weeks although I'd prefer her to get to at least 37 weeks 😂)

Pelvic girdle pain will be the death of me I swear 🫠 I've had it from the moment I found out I got pregnant 😅

I finished Els blanket the other week! It's so soft and cosy! Now I need my crojo back so I can crochet some bonnets, outfits, blankets etc 😂 also fat boy has claimed it

Trying to figure out the fine lines between chronic illness flare-up, actual illness, burnout, normal pregnancy symptoms or "I should go hospital to get checked because this isn't normal pregnancy symptoms" is a tough one 🤪

I can't believe in just 11 weeks or under (I went a month early with my second) I get to meet this little miracle and her tiny little button nose 😭

People that enable narcissists and abusers actually piss me off. You're taking their side instead of the victim/s. Weird behaviour queen but go off!