This is so real omg

I guess I’m sharing this because I mostly miss feeling connected to people and I kinda don’t have the ability to do that IRL for the reasons aforementioned. I just feel like a weird alien trapped in a 24 year old girl body and I feel sad that I don’t have fun very often. Does that make sense?

and I am still coming up with cool creative ideas related to my painting practice or any arts/crafts related interests of mine, but I legitimately don’t have the energy or the cognitive capacity to do tasks and I can’t keep my space tidy because tidying is physically exhausting w/ POTS UGH anyways..

but I miss having like, a social life like I had in college and being able to just laugh with friends… I don’t remember the last time I truly laughed too which is sad… I’m kinda out of my winter depressive episode except POTS flare is making it linger a little bc I can’t do shit these days…

it’s all just so strange right now being 24 1/2, i am still unsure about my grad school trajectory, im now dealing with physical health stuff that ive been so privileged to have never dealt with before this point, i am burnt out (arent we all?), i dont have any friends i hang out with really, …

Oops I took yet another unintentional hiatus from bluesky because I forgot that it existed!!! And my physical/mental health has been.. well…a challenge! Likely getting a formal POTS diagnosis in the near future, but thankfully the flare up I had been experiencing has subsided a bit, tho not entirely

Omg I just realized “pop” from Harry’s new album sounds like what does the fox say 😭😭😭

THANK YOU

not sure but it definitely could increase your chances of going to the emergency room🥴😂

all I see is (Opalite) 🌈

Great minds think alike🤍🩶🖤

SAME I JUST RETURNED FROM A MONTH-LONG BLUESKY BREAK BC MY MENTAL HEALTH WAS BAD AND NOW IM DOING BETTER

I’m sorry but the announcement of the Opalite MV coinciding with my return to bluesky due to improved mental health is SO FUCKING FUNNY (and scary) TO ME🥴

But yeah all of this to say (… 🎵 I hope you’re okay but you’re the— lol sorry TTPD has been my era of choice lately) I hope you are all doing well, given the shitty circumstances of the world right now. I hope everyone is taking care of themselves when possible♥️

and I know you can’t *force* yourself back into hyperfixations, of course, because they are not a choice!! Buuut I want to re-immerse myself into the Taylor verse for the sake of having joy and whimsy and girlhood and sparkles and bonding over amazing music& talking about how batshit crazy T is😂

I’m definitely craving that sense of community, now that I’ve gotten myself more grounded on an individual level. I’m going to try and pop on here regularly again, because I truly miss this group! I sometimes forget what apps I have on my phone so honestly my absence is pretty much always accidental

Heyyyy long time no see (I was only gone for like a month lol) hope you guys are all doing well. Over the holidays and in January, i was able to improve my depression and get a handle on my meds situation. I’m not back in my taylor hyperfixation necessarily, but she’s not gone. Just dormant!

Took my adhd meds at the beach, laying on a chaise, and just generated some profound wisdom: Genuine Success is not be what you want it to be. Success is defined by what you need it to be.

I may need to get myself one of these! I now use a therapy lamp in the mornings which I enjoy, but it didn’t help me get through midday and afternoon, and I was told to not use it in those times… so I think I need a more subtle alternative like what you are describing

At least we aren’t alone 🫶

Same I always get confused and frustrated and give up

Yes I’m trying to test this on myself! I suspect it’s part of the problem. I gravitate towards carbs

Thank the LORD my glasses for driving are coming in the mail this week because I’m tired of being nervous driving because I see stars wherever there are lights 😭 it’s pretty when it’s a Christmas tree, not when you are in a metal moving box

I know that there isn’t a fix-all for this, and i probably just need to accept how my body works and adapt my life better.. but idk how to do that or what to do with myself because the fatigue makes adhd symptoms worse and I can’t even bring myself to do fun things sometimes.

Does anyone else struggle with afternoon fatigue chronically, even with adhd med boosters if you take them? I think maybe I’m just really sensitive to my circadian cycle or something, or the light change (it’s definitely worse in winter. I also have seasonal depression).I need to find strategies

MC, you’ve done it again🤯

WAIT MIDNIGHTS HAS A FLAME ON THE COVER BECAUSE IT IS HOW SHE MELTS/EXPLODES THE ICE/GLASS SHE FELL THROUGH/HER PAST WAS FROZEN BEHIND

It’s giving slumber party

That’s one of my biggest fears for whenever I will have my first relationship lol

All of the midnights videos are not only connected together but they were also specifically created as a visualiser for a real timeline of events that have happened or will happen in Taylor’s life.

I recommend watching the four videos back to back to get the full image. It’s well worth it imo