nsfw version 💖❤️
teehee!

the few of us that try to reclaim it. Our body was used and stolen, we are getting it back by our own means.

And this message is ESPECIALLY toward people that believes a victim of SA that is still sex positive is lying or "didn't get traumatized enough so it's not that bad" genuinely, fuck you.

While there are definetely wrong ways to go about it, going ace or trying to reclaim sex are not parts of them.

This is toward both allosexual people and other victims that think their experiences are the template. While you are valid in replying to your traumas by denying sex, please do not shame

BUT this is not the only way that a victim heals/deal with it. Some of us, including me, want to claim back our sexuality and turn it into a positive thing for the first time or again. Stop trying to act there is just one template way to heal. Everyone deals with their traumas differently

Anyway, this isn't what I'm here to talk about, I'm here to vent my frustration about people expecting, hell even demanding, that the "proper" way to heal as a victim of CSA/SA is to be asexual and/or sex repulsed. It's a common response (and if it's a coping mechanism that works for you!) its valid

I don't WANT to be like this, I know I am not ace naturally because I remember masturbation to feel good when I experimented as a teen (we all did, stop lying), my sexuality was stolen from me by two greedy excuses of men and now I cannot even enjoy it by myself

I've TRIED to feel pleasure recently, I literally can't, it's like any other part of my body is touched, worse that I discovered: when it's my boyfriend that does it, I basically zone out and disassociate. This is not normal nor healthy and is most likely a trauma response

first off, I reiterate, but I am a victim of SA. Twice. Once when I was 14 and once in February. This caused me trauma that basically killed my sexuality. I would say I am asexual, not as a natural sexual preference, but as a trauma response.

Rant post, ignore if you want but I have to get this off my chest

Curry the Cinderace doodles

it's not because I've been SA'd twice before that I should become a pearl clutching prude, I deserve to explore that side of myself too

starting to heal my sex related traumas by attempting to turn sex and sexual feelings into a more positive thing. Expect much more wholesome sex content in the upcoming weeks as I am also going to be experimenting with myself

I only just realized that my fic Dead Lamb: Do Not Eat has an accidentally clever title because not only is there a dead lamb in there (just as an off hand remark) the fic itself contains some risqué fetishes like inflations and such, which are tagged, so people have been warned and can't complain

Wrote some smut, read it

archiveofourown.org/works/60667693

OKAY BUT WHAT IF I WRITE A FIC IN WHICH GOGETA TIES EZRAEL DOWN WITH HIS OWN TAIL BECAUSE HIS TAIL IS SO FUCKING LONG

LIKE BOY WHY U SO TAIL

lil succ

#ocart

I made this account specifically to goon, while it's kinda sad we can't set them to private, I'll only repost stuff that has been properly tagged and such, if you don't like it, just block me, it's VERY effective on this site

When you've been needing it real bad.
#vegekaka #ベジカカ