Whether its voice training, make up or other parts of the journey. Know that its okay to not be 'good' at something straight away. Talent doesn't really exist, people aren't inherently good at something. It's a willingness to be 'bad' and practicing that makes us "become" good at something

Happy TDOV. There's not a lot I could say that others already haven't, but; none of this shit was your fault. How you've been treated for this long had nothing to do with who you are in your heart. There was nothing you did to deserve any of this. I hope you can love yourself as much as I love you.

Not every trans person chooses to be visible, & not every one can. On TDOV, I'd like to acknowledge those of us who either can't or don't feel safe enough to express themselves, and thank those who are visible for offering up hope and a community. Without you all, I would not be where I am today!

Someone ahead of me went inactive... I guess I'm top 50 in the United States on ScoreSaber now lmao

You matter.
More than your worst day.
More than what hurt you.
More than who failed you.
More than the voice telling you you’re not enough.

You are here.
You are needed.
And this world is better with you in it.

Something lowkirkenuinely kinda crazy I realized:

When I got to #150 global on SS, I had only 2 550s. Now at #124, I have nearly two pages of 550+ (including a 580), and the person ahead of me is like 30pp ahead.

I already knew ranking up would be tough, but this is truly something else lmao

it is that one day where I update the number in my bio on every social media platform I'm active on 🫠

I JUST SKIPPED 570PP ON SCORESABER????

having your whole body shaved clean feels so goodd skin feels so soft, but it takes so long to do only lasts like maybe a daay, what the fuqqq T~T

just got hytale :3

It's still the first week of January, it's not too late to post this, right? Even if others already had their goals before the year even started? At least I'm giving myself goals this year, and there's still a whole year ahead of us.

General goals: - Stop letting anxiety dictate life - Start HRT - Work on feminizing my IRL appearance - Be more honest about my mental health instead of isolating - Get back into streaming semi-regularly - Learn driving again (to handle more than an empty parking lot & not waste time on my permit)

Beat Saber specific goals: - Full page of 570pp on ScoreSaber - Get a 1000ap play on AccSaber - Actually get CS level 25 (currently at 14 with a 25 pass) - Make a ranked map - Also enjoy the game casually sometimes (since I take ranked a little too serious, always trying to improve)

2026 goals post, both general & Beat Saber specific.
(will pin this btw)

is it wrong to not really have any personal goals for 2026 and rather just hoping its less of a shitshow than 2025

Top 150 global on ScoreSaber! +my 2nd 550pp score :)

omg is that the Celeste death animation in GD? :3

And this is why I avoid playing maps that are in the latest scoresaber batch

nah what is happening in the beatkhana discord 💀

I am rank 69 in the united states on ScoreSaber (nice)

(4)
You are worth it. Don't listen to anyone telling you that you're not. <3

(3)
Don't be afraid to reach out for help yourself if you need it. Furthermore, if you are seriously thinking about ending it all, please reach out to your country's suicide hotline. Killing yourself is never a solution to not wanting to deal with your struggles. It hurts those you're close to.

(2)
I also want to remind y'all, please reach out your loved ones. Some of us may appear happy and cheerful towards others, especially online, but are secretly going through a lot of pain and struggling mentally. Letting them know that they are not alone and offering a supporting hand means a lot.

(1) This is gonna be a serious post.

I saw a few announcements about this around the Beat Saber community, and wanted to share the word myself. Frxtil's boyfriend committed suicide recently, and it's had a big impact on him. Please go show him some love and support (@frxtil on Twitter).

Here's my front page O_O

Top 200 global on ScoreSaber!! Yes, I did get it once, but it was before No Fear No Despair got massively nerfed. This time, there is no such asterisk :)

:D

Here's a clip of the sabers in gameplay and that FC animation

New sabers :D
These ring sabers with my name on it have a shiny galaxy blade, my PFP at the bottom, and a VERY satisfying full combo animation!!

Got these from @jackie.transfemme.team after winning the saber sisters tourney. I highly recommend her saber comms if you want a personalized saber :)

me during beat saber world cup

Just a quick note if anyone else uses my Beat Saber HSV:

I was recently made aware that it was causing issues because it didn't contain the config version. I posted a fixed version in BSMG's mod-assets channel, I'd strongly suggest you replace it with the fixed one :)