my guy best friend is jealous of my bf

a man in a suit and tie is laughing and saying i gots to know . ALT: a man in a suit and tie is laughing and saying i gots to know .

me to me bf bc i’m nosy af and want to know why he’s been strategically making sure that i don’t meet his brother despite my bf and i being in a relationship for 1.5 years

me waiting for my bf to come back from hanging out with his friends 😔

well they def know their target audience by being in DC 💀 lol

My painting COASTAL POPPIES

Now how does LinkedIn know that I’m fruity? 🤨 lmao

survived the ticketmaster wars and got some great seats 🙂‍↕️

Got in the queue to buy The Strokes tickets at exactly 9:45 am, and I was somehow #484 in the queue 💀

exactly 🙂‍↕️

nah, this was an elite move lol

eeikuobaj and twitter oomfies

i deleted my twitter a few weeks ago. just wasn’t feeling it anymore

Happy Eid ✨ 🙏🏼

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I just wish she didn’t see me as the villain & would understand that I had to leave to protect myself from the pain she inflicted.

At the end of our friendship, P was a complex & layered individual who eventually shut herself out from those closest to her because of a traumatic life event

I don’t see her as the villain in my story despite how horribly she treated me in the end

She was just hurting & didn’t know what to do

So, I sit here defeated, simultaneously pining for what once was while feeling hurt bc of how P chose to treat me and angry.

Angry because u can’t hold someone accountable for something u purposely left them out in the dark

It’s obtuse to expect people to know your needs without u saying them

My suspicions were later confirmed through a mutual contact.

I tried to reach out to P at this time (it was about a year after the ghosting), but it wasn’t well-received.

I later tried twice throughout the years, but I was left on read.

A mutual friend said that P wanted nothing to do w me.

P had experienced a significant trauma in her life which is why she was cold & distant, apparently not just towards me but several others in her life as well.

There were other incidents between P & I that I won’t elaborate on for P’s own sake since it ties back to her trauma.

B mentions that P had gone through something, but B doesn’t elaborate. I didn’t fully register what she said since I was drunk.

But weeks later, I realized everything.

About a month later, I went to a party w a mutual friend (B) of P & mine.

While drinking, B mentions P. I shared how I felt used & had been mistreated for a year despite me bringing up to P her change in behavior towards me MULTIPLE times hence the ghosting.

She would continue to be cold, distant, and just straight up use me for her personal gain.

I eventually grew tired of it. I didn’t know her anymore.

So, I ghosted her. Just told her I’d let her know when I’d see her next.

A few weeks later, she needed something, I didn’t have it, and she asked what happened to it. I reminded her what I confided in her, and she said, “Yeah, but that wasn’t enough to k!ll yourself.”

Who tf tells that to someone who is suicidal?? 😭

*CW*
One time I confided in P about how I tried to self-delete. This wasn’t the first time we ever talked about something that heavy, and yet, she looked at me with dead eyes as I was bawling my eyes out.

Halfway through, all she said was, “Oh,” and walked out of the room, leaving me all by myself

C had my contact info yet chose to go through P since she knew I’d most likely say yes if P asked me as opposed to C doing so.

Plus, she lived super out of the way.

My parents ended up bringing her back to campus.

C never once thanked me nor acknowledged the huge favor my parents did for her.

P had a 2nd bestie (C) who was somewhat friendly with me, but I could still feel tension.

One weekend, my parents were going to visit me. Early Friday morning, P asks if my parents can give C a ride back to campus.

I had no formal relationship with C & she had never met my parents

i confronted her about it & she came up with the bs excuse that she didn’t want to seem lame to her bf like huh?! 😭

i forgot to mention that she would also sometimes use me for her financial benefit.

there was another time where i was doing her hw (this was common) & her messages tab popped up since her bf texted her.

i was about to close out until i briefly saw my name.

my childhood best friend (P) said that i was being bogus by not inviting her out.

that was categorically false.

my sister visited for a weekend, and, while she was napping in my room, my childhood bestie + her friend group walk into the room literally talking shit about me being at party and having fun.

like you’re rly that pathetic that you don’t like it when people have fun? 💀

she would eventually form a friend group and be close to shutting me out.

her new bestie hated me, never even acknowledged my presence, and would always mean mug me.

i brought this up to my childhood best friend, and she dismissed it.

later, i realized why she did that.