i hate myfuckingperiod i eat too much and get in the most rancid mood

binged after my workout last night
today i feel stupid AND disgusting 🤡🤡

claiming this energy bc i need the scale to move tmrw😵‍💫

ig today is a junk omad bc idk how to fucken say no

ignoring the headache i want to get high

actually so done rn i feel nothing for my existence except crippling guilt (pms talking or not i cant escape it)

fuming & feeling bad for myself. i hate that i hav to compare myself to other ppl

i feel so sick rn cant do shit but if i dont i will feel so guilty

Omg I gen cant anymore i want this all to be over

i overate last night after days of restricting & i feel disgusting i hate myself bad
i feel so trapped in this nightmare body & its all my fault
i cant stay like this yet my lw feels so far off its grating me

i hate these fckn ppl idc idc i want to be alone

no reason to fck up other than to mqke myself feel worse can i just not??

i feel HORRIBLE that i look horrible & disgusting

this whole yr feels dedicated to annoy the shit outta me

my cousin is visiting n styaing over she is lit so skinny i want to be ded bc ik the bugs in my brain r not gonna let me breathe or be normal yeah

got new cIothes. im not even this size anymore i hav to st_rve so bad

my period ruins my life so bad i hate it sm

eggs (boiled, egg bites), yog, dark choco liek 70%, popcorn, dates, most fruits, shrimp

UGGHHHHHHH
I dont know how to snap back into it idk idk i need to more than ever

hate myself

IM SO JEALOUS OF PPL WHO FORGET TO EAT

realll i feel like its a self sabotage thing w me

these past few days ive restricted during the day just to binge at night im on the verge of

bfast was a disaster, i just gave into random cravings ofc i regretted immediately & felt miserable lol
lunch is this mango

dont fail me… the oats & i say to each other

if i were just taller this weight wouldnt be so bad but i cant control height only my intake n mouth get ur shit together omfg

if i were just skinny rn i could forgive myself for sm but also in a cycle rn where im eating my feelings bc i hate myself so

i need to STOP GRAZING

omg i cant stand it when someone is talking at me while im trying to eat

so sleepy