on one hand, it absolutely ages my last work HARD (looking back, that character would probably be a VTuber if i wrote it now) but on the other, i think it's so funny and good that so much has changed in such a short time period.

upon toying around with a new streamer au, i'm thinking hard on the last streamer au i worked on where it was "taboo" for one of the characters to be both a streamer and run an OF when, in just a few short years, i've seen a MASSIVE increase in people who do both of those things, unapologetically.

so its past ten pm. no fucking power. new estimated time? three in the fucking morning. thanks for nothing, consumers energy.

a full 12 hours after the FIRST estimated restoration time. fuck, dude.

🤞🏻me too! thankfully we have a generator so its not the end of the world but its been a weird day.

uh, update: power is now meant to come back online at 10 PM TONIGHT instead of 3 this afternoon. so that kind of fucking blows.

my dad essentially has his own power bank of batteries for various lights and fans and i own three lightsticks! so we're good on light and comfort. plus the generator my parents bought last season.

rip to my job tho. i can only imagine how much product the store is gonna have to throw out.

so. some severe weather swept thru my area last night (possible tornado touch down less than ten miles from me) so we are currently without power (have been since midnight, est. restoration is 3 pm today) but there is good news!

not to get emotional on main, but given all the bullshit happening lately, in kpop, in the world, in my own fucking personal life, this makes me wanna cry

holding out for the next ot13 comeback, and hopefully concert tour because i didn't buy a lightstick at my big age to not use it

having watched the vertiable shitshow kpop, especially 3rd gen kpop groups, have become in past few years part of me is like

this might as well happen.

not to be dramatic, but i absolutely just crashed out because my laundry machine wasn't running correctly

it was not about the laundry

i worry having no one to tell about my newest hyperfixation on cr*v*ty is actually making me worse

so be it

however, i will also say, ryobi x nct collab when? sm has done crazier shit and they're literally The Same Fucking Color.

nothing is more embarrassing as an "ex" nctzen than ALL the tools in my house, from cleaning to actual hardware, being fucking neon green.

ryobi i am begging you to pick a new color scheme atp.

update! i have developed bruising on the inner corner of my left eye and slight discoloration in the same place on my right eye. so.

i don't work tomorrow but i DO work on tuesday and these popped blood vessels in my eyes are definitely not gonna heal in time. my coworkers are gonna think i look crazy.

i don't think it's ever gonna matter how old i get. throwing up scares the fucking life out of my every time i do it. i fucking hate it.

i'm not saying porcelain maid was the inspiration behind something in my new fic BUT i'm not NOT saying it

(puppet and / or doll emoji when?)

is my job my dream job? no. not even close. have my coworkers and customers made me laugh more than i ever thought i would after getting such frustrating news two days ago? yeah, they have.

sometimes that can be enough.

after my Very Valid crashout, i did at least accomplish some things

my taxes are done 👍🏻

i HATE being into kpop. i am so SICK of this shit always happening.

i gotta stop trying to write about sports i know shit all about. catch me trying to speed run it by skimming the wikipedia like a moron.

no one makes me laugh & cry so genuinely like @woolpi.bsky.social's works do. their writing is something so fucking special i can't put it into words.

by the way i never found the one i wanted sooooooo

lost to the ether that one, i guess.

having THE most unorganized gdocs in the world means that when i want to read a half-finished bedtime story that i catered to my tastes, exclusively, i'm picking through 6 to 10 folders MINIMUM to find the Right One.

make everybody gay. who the fuck cares anymore

this feels intensely targeted and i don't like it (ur a genius)

despite the busy holiday rushes i managed to build over half (!!!) the profiles i needed for this au.

and yet the writing has still not really begun. sigh.

by the way, if you're wondering, "al, is this about the same smau you were writing about 4 months ago?" the answer is NO. i got a new phone and none of that shit transfered so we're starting from scratch.

people who write smaus are some of the craziests motherfuckers i know. it is such an underrated form of story telling and one of the hardest things you will ever learn to do as an author.

nothing in this world like realizing how small minded your predominantly white small town community is by experiencing at least two microagressions about two different communities of people. in a single work day. less than, even!