everything i believe in tells me that they deserve second chances and that i want to give them. that anything can be mended. i believe in forgiveness and change. but that younger version of me is locked up tighter every day

i feel like i got through to my parents with brute force kindness but now its scary being on the other side of it where our relationship is good and only sometimes do i remember how much my mom hurt me as a child. i’m still uncomfortable being touched by her. i feel like i betrayed my younger self

tomorrow someone remind me I want to draw me petting his head

Felix my big brother felix. he doesnt mind it. hes even good at it. I lovr you Felix you always keep us safe 🍎

insomnia hasnt been this bad in ages

NEED vent

triggered myself, somehow. its 4:30AM. i dont know why i do this to myself. i feel awful

everything muffled. everything glass

its like not knowing which way is up or down

lol

i have nothing- no memories to keep me solid. i am nothing. nothing in this world is real

ONE nothin wrong with me TWO nothin wrong with mr THREE

im normal

god i miss vent!!!

i 💛 my this!

really sick again. doctors tmrw

🪶 i’d love to say i was fronting but heaven knows i would be doing something useful if i was

🪶 not obsessed with that idiot. its such a braindead idea. nobody understands anyone else

shifts a little to the left and suddenly 🎐 is all i can think about

they said it might happen again (at the hospital) and if it does ill have to have more surgery (more stuff taken out this time) and. its like. been almost a year and my omamori is obviously losing its effectiveness so, i

my period came two weeks early and not only am i really really hormonally imbalanced but im also extremely freaked out. like ik it can happen but after last year . idfk

having a fucking time of it lol

i feel like a fucking mess today

need vent back

Consensual But It Shouldn't Be

i wish i could talk to him, just to tell him how much i fucking hate him. how he failed. how he was an essential cog in a broken system, keeping it running. a waste of breath.

like i dont think i have ever hated someone from another world like i hate him. it isnt even fair really. he was pretty much just a kid. and i dont even really understand my relation to the source etc or if its anything more than just fiction to me. nonetheless, big feeling

literally hate him. hate him. its an incredibly and ridiculously intense way to feel about someone who is fictional here

i hate ⚡️ so much lulz its the strongest feeling that ties 🎐🫀

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