Ok, despite USPS and Plymouth Argyle, I've had a pretty great birthday.

I am not going to let this ruin my birthday. I am not going to let this ruin my birthday.

In less happy news, looks like it is being returned to sender even though I swear I got the address correct so...

Good thing I've been practicing Radical Acceptance isn't it?

Ambition achieved.

Ever try and do something nice that is actually a bit ridiculous and think "it's ok if it doesn't work out" but then it becomes a major source of stress for you?

I need to stop checking the tracking and just accept it will either arrive or is lost to the ancient gods of international shipping.

I raved enough about #EverythingIsTuberculosis that one of my colleagues has started listening to the audiobook and loves it.

This meme was definitely not created by a scientist

(sooooo many authors. Sooooo many revisions. Soooo many meetings of "maybe we should do this one extra bit of analysis")

Turns out I cannot multitask even when one of the tasks is "listening to a livestream in background" so will go back to that later and again feel like I've missed out

I don't even want to eat, I've had too much chocolate today. But my son needs feeding so I guess I should cook.

Trying to accept that it is just a low productivity weekend and that is ok. Trying to accept that I am just not a very productive person in general and that is also ok.

How about making a world that has no horrors?

Fortunately, I no longer get emotionally invested in negative football results, so I'm just going to go do the shopping and buy sensible food instead of only ice cream and half-price Easter eggs.

I stopped off for drink and chocolate and now I have made it home. Eating the last few slices of pizza and might stick match on or might just go nap

I went to the trans rights protest. It is a sunny day.

I still feel hopeless and even though my goal right now is just to get home it feels too much and I just want to lie down on the path and die

Ah I see it is a "being jealous of other people having a good time" day. Thanks brain.

I get the concept of riding the wave of emotion, but people do actually drown while surfing. So...

Anyway, I am supposed to be redoing survival graphs not having a mental breakdown, so I better get on with that.

How do you do it? How does anyone feel /so deeply/ and still...live? Still function as a person? Still create, and embrace life and all its horrors?

Like, is there a course you can take or something because I would really love to be able to do this.

Maybe I can be like the moon. Maybe even though I can't produce light, I can find a way to share light.

Maybe.

FINALLY

Anyway, I keep having insights into how my brain works whenever Hank talks about how his brain works, so @hankgreen.bsky.social please make more videos like this you will save me a ton in therapy fees 3/3

By the time I verbalise what I am thinking/feeling it is already one step abstracted from the core thought, and of course I can recognise that verbalisation as not some core truth about reality because it is not what I was actually thinking. 2/3

I lost my internal monologue YouTube video by Hank Green

So I keep thinking about this and realising that maybe a lot of my thoughts aren't in words and maybe this is why I struggle with the thought records etc of CBT and thought defusion of ACT 1/3

youtube.com/shorts/-p_7d...

Yes, I should!

I just haven't been able to get that excited about Artemis II. I really do think I'm broken.

I did some puzzles. Maybe trying to learn dbt skills on my own was a push but I have no idea how long it's going to be until the CMHT actually see me

Turns out the reason I only use basic distress tolerance skills like eating chocolate and crying is because the advanced ones are beyond me (Values? Commited action? Belief in a higher power?)

I actually don't know anything about anything. Knowing stuff would be so cool.

Trans women are biological women. Trans men are biological men. Please stop using the phrase “biological” to distinguish cis from trans people. Cis does just fine and you’re also revealing your own ignorance of how biology works, as well as underlying inherent transphobia, even if unintentionally.

I know it is a small complaint in comparison, but Gilead were an absolute pain to work with and I at least was relieved when the project ended early.