bought dark souls 3 but i'm too tired to play soulslike

oh, i'm lonely for real, actually. like, having only one or two people to talk is quite... lonely. realized that today, because i got home early and didn't have anyone to talk to since my friend was busy doing his own stuff

ok, time to read gay fanfics

anyway, i really wanna watch this nakamura anime, i'm sure he's just like me - he's gay and probably autistic

i hate realizing how much i like him, it's so annoying. why can't i see him only as a friend and that's all? fuuuuuuuuck

Black & white headshot fanart sketch of Ace from One Piece with a design closer to his original Alabasta iteration. He has a lopsided smile and is looking to the side saying "that's great man". It's unclear how sincere this is

I AM MISSING HIM!!!!! WHY DOESN'T HE REPLY!!!!! STOP PLAYING TTRPG!!!! I WANNA TALK TO YOU!!!

i wonder if there are mizuyang fics on ao3...

finally took some rest and woke up at 2pm. i usually don't like sleeping this much, specially now that i'm working till 9pm every day, but this week - because of the holidays - i will have plenty of free time, so i decided it was okay to sleep this much

i'm actually an idiot

i just got home and it's almost time to go to work again, i can't do it anymore

my head won't stop hurting, can't even cry in peace anymore

i think what hurts the most is that i'm always trying to show how much i care but i never got anything back. it's kinda humiliating. i'm so stupid, i hate this

going to stay home doing lots of nothing alone, damnnnn

at least it's almost monday

i wanted to feel special to someone, needed, missed. is that too much?

i kinda just wanted to feel loved somehow, this is the worst month of my entire life and i feel alone. yeah, dimi talks to me and all, but only because i keep texting him and asking to do stuff together. if i stop, i know he will stop too, so... yeah

i guess this is it? getting home from work, eating and going to sleep because i have no one to talk since no one talks to me if i don't text them first

don't give me space, i don't need it. i need affection. words of affirmation. i have no one to give me that. fuck, i dislike myself so much, i'm so useless, no one really likes me and they're not even wrong

i worked from 3pm to 9pm, got home and opened telegram only to find literally zero messages. honestly, no one fucking misses me and this shows how stupid i am for caring so much about people that only sees me as their random internet friend

horrible day, honestly

it's funny how no one actually cares about me the way i care about them

i hate being a fucking failure. i'm trying every day, but it keeps going wrong all the time. i'm so tired, i just wanted to make my mom proud

i don't know why i feel so lonely. i miss my cat so fucking much. i wish he was alive, i want to sniff him

he said he's okay with me sending him gifts... let's go, i guess?

eu gosto muito de você

some days will be harder than others. i like him a whole lot and i wish i could show him this, but i can't

i want my cat back

yeah, i am indeed a fool. a jester. i hate this, i absolutely hate when i sound too excited about something and the answer is as dry as the desert. i feel horrible. a clown.

i miss my cat so so so much. it's so weird not to have him anymore. like. he was always with me, he was my best friend. my little baby