It’s a pornography store. I was buying pornography.

QP with a ship that makes you happy...

Body as an object, cast in pink and purple tones, soft and dusty light. A body in a rumpled bed full of texture and tossed sheets, legs at odd angles and swell of hip and ass and dip of waist making a landscape, like a cliff giving up into the ocean. The image is flipped upside down creating an abstraction, skin texture and strange shapes and old bruises all turned into something unexpected.

A body crawling on a bed, away from you, body spread and bent like waves on a rough ocean of white bedsheets in purple sunset storm light. Ass up, legs bent, back arched, the body is an ocean.

To love & be loved. To hold your own insignificance. To seek joy and beauty in the saddest places & pursue happiness to it's limit. To respect strength not power or authority and those who try to hold it, to notice and try to understand & never look away.

To look inside yourself and see the stars.

Vampire Red for birthday month!

I tried watching it again a little while back thinking maybe I’ll be able to like it on a “so bad it’s good” level.

Nope brain meltingly ugly and obnoxious.

Van Helsing.

Because nothing attracts the ladies and/or gentlemen more than some shitty maudlin poetry(I guess 🤷‍♂️) with a Jr. High School level of emotional complexity.

Just have to get it out of my head so I can feel it.

We’re in sync and engaged with one another.
We laugh.
We share.
We bond.

It gives you comfort.
It gives you happiness.
It gives you that most dangerous of aphrodisiacs.
Hope.

When it feels like it used to.
When it’s all you’ve been missing.

You think everything will work itself out.
We might just be ok.

“”SATURDAY”

It’s not the hard days.
Or the anxious days.
Or the days of complete indifference.

It’s the rarer good days.
You fill with gratitude for it.
Yet, it remains the hardest to face.

Is it ironic if to compensate for total lack of emotional sweetness in my life I am hopelessly consuming vast amounts of sugar?

Tonight is the Night I Fell Asleep at the Wheel-Barenaked Ladies

Ohhhhh…that explains…um me.

This doesn’t seem hyperbolic now

How the fuck am I supposed to concentrate on or care about things with this shit going on?

Oh the deranged idiot is talking like he’s actively trying to start World War III… let me look at this work spreadsheet. 🤪🤪

Drink some water

Take a deep breath

Make sure you eat today

Take your meds

Practice your self care routine

Don't give in to panic

Don't let despair win

The problems with US government spending priorities are vast and extremely depressing/enraging much of the time. I desperately wish much more was spent on improving people's lives directly, and much less on war. Science spending just isn't really part of that particular equation.

Queen - Somebody To Love (Official Video) YouTube video by Queen Official

I’d settle for somebody that wants to hold me for 5 minutes or somebody that doesn’t start texting their situationship the minute I walk out of the room and wonder why I’m an insecure wreck or somebody or somebody that doesn’t blame me for all their shit!

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DAMN STRAIGHT

5 shows to get to know me.

Doctor Who
Community
Rick & Morty
30 Rock
Boston Legal

Exactly the same…well maybe SJ is 1a and Clara is 1b

Post something random or yall will have a crappy April.

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a group of soldiers are standing in a row wearing helmets and armor . ALT: a group of soldiers are standing in a row wearing helmets and armor .

Drank 2 large iced coffees today.

Yes. 😁

Disappointed but not a surprise. It’s peak 2026.

All I want is to go to sleep and just not to deal with all my shitty fucking feeling. It’s all completely fucking useless!!

Peter Capaldi visited "Jimmy Egypt And Sons Musical Instruments" in Glasgow, Scotland, March, 2026

I would dearly love to be able to go just maybe 10 whole minutes without my shit toad brain getting anxious or uneasy about some random thing. The vast majority of which is nonsense peppered in with the legitimate worries.

The hero we needed in 2026