at least i get to talk about that aspect and how much of a struggle it is to do things 🫡

i feel like making a doc on adhd for my fmp is meta in itself for the fact i procrastinate with it constantly

now if the card economy can turbo crash so i can buy the rest of the mew cards i need thatd be great, because im not paying £££s for a singular piece of cardboard just cus some people said its ~sought after~

i do wonder what cards i had as a kid that got nicked… there was a specific celebi one that i had that was stolen, but i rebought it a few years back fairly cheap

we will never know 🥲

i wish foils were much nicer… older card foils were prettier and much nicer and now plain foils are so bland!!! put the cosmo foil on everything!!! stop making it feel cheap!!

itd be nice to get some packs again but everywhere is overpriced and sold out… no fun :(

overall, i had a decent amount! lots of gen 3 era, some ereader cards too… which are my favourite card design wise…

what is it with old cards and them just feeling much better ?? like idk its weird. newer basic cards dont feel as nice…

also found a mew i didnt have! a non holo version… to accompany my holo version!

ngl glad to have found this because mew card prices have gone really stupid 🥲

there was also this atrociously cut/centered copycat from team rocket returns o_O

i think this is the worst one ive seen in an older card lol

found my favourite round boy!!! and this random japanese gloom???

here are some cool ones i liked… good few pretty holos to put in my collection :3

clearing out the garage and i found cards i didnt know i had 😂 a bunch were fake but i found some gems!

its even worse when it wakes me up in the middle of the night?? so itll be like 3am and random songs are going around in my head on repeat like wtf is the point of this brain. what evolutionary purpose does it serve to have the lyrics of renee rapps shy going around in my head non stop

this is why i end up drinking coffee at 10pm

i can tell my adhd meds have worn off because the invasive 5 second repeating clip of a random song is violating my mind right now stop please for the love of GOD i want some silence

i dont even know why i post on insta its a fucking useless website at this point. algos fucking suck

what is even the point of insta hashtags when you are cant even browse them chronologically. like what is the point. how do you even find new stuff. is it just left to the fate of the fucking algorithm now

god i hate meta

sometimes i wonder why my parents didnt get my assessed as a child when i did weird shit like pour my magic stars on to a plate and organise them by faces before eating them

a baby is crying while being held by a woman in a stadium . ALT: a baby is crying while being held by a woman in a stadium .

I GOT THISSSS

and this mini doc comes from my heart, my SOUL! somewhat autobio in nature? i guess. i dunno. itll be very visual heavy with some narration. i LOVE visuals as im a visual person, so i want to utilise that in my work.

i do like making narrative/fiction films, but theyre also suuuuper difficult logistics wise, esp as a student. and tbh, i love documentary stuff. its why i like doing BTS work (behind the scenes), i just love lingering in the bg filming shit lol like being a fly on the wall!

instead with this, i have TONS of time to film things. and with what im making, every day i can film a bunch of different things every day. meaning ive got lots and lots of days to film.

and im also mega hyped for this project too! hopefully, itll turn out good 😭

so im going to do a solo mini doc instead! it means i dont have to run around organising a bunch of stuff, like locations, crew, cast etc. meaning the time to film is narrow.

was gonna a short fiction film, but we ran into a bunch of issues and decided OK. lets change course and do something else. id rather be 101% on something than 50%, ya know?

got major stressed over my uni FMP recently but you know what i did instead of catatrophising (as usual) and having a meltdown? i told myself NO! lets get this issue FIXED!

did some self care and washed my car since its a lovely day. love cleaning, really helps me destress. something about the process of removing dirt fixes me 😂

probably explains why everything just fucking hurts constantly if i do remotely anything

ill be there going to sleep when my shoulder joint just slips out and back in again like tehe, oopsie! there it goes 🤢

me: its normal for your shoulder joint to pop constantly when you lie on your side, right
them: …
me: …right?

always fun finding out that actually, your limbs arent supposed to bend that way