💎 had such a grip on our brain that ig its no wonder i dont remember. He did a lot of things like this and some of it was Bad™️ tbh. Led to rly bad things THAT IG HE DEALT WITH TOO SO…. Anyways just as i was thinking damn its been silent up there what if im faking LMFAO

It worked, and thank god i found the profile empty. It was a complete ghost town of an account. Date made 2015, gender male. I knew i was male at that point but holy shit i have NO MEMORY of this site. I didnt even kno it existed??? So um what the fuck guys

I had to log back into an old tumblr rp burner email to keep it active or gmail was gonna delete it. In that email i found a tumblr user registration and an email for an adult website. The username was literally an alias for 💎. I log on with it and a password i was likely to use then

Had a yap sesh with my bro the other day and i was like dude u gotta move in silence, dont let hoes kno ur next move. Reminded myself to move in silence and not let hoes kno my next move💯

Not me crying and watching a dad and his kid that cant be any older than 10 playing street hockey on the slippery frozen asphalt outside my window bc its a snow day and we’re all iced/snowed in so they have time to spend together and are bonding in a father son way we never had 💯👁️

AAAAAAAAAAA

Best part of the day is when i can lay in bed, catch up on the cool stuff my bf sent me on disco, and then cuddle him and sleep 🖤🖤🖤

The moment i start to relax about something the lord loves to test me

I MISS VENT FUCK THESE PUBLIC PROFILES

But theyre not the friends i want. I miss my friends from home. I wish those were the ones that could see me. I want them to hug me

I kinda wish we didnt realize any of this about ⬛️. When i was in charge we were blissfully unaware and life sucked for other reasons but at least i was able to talk to people and do what i wanted. I feel weird being seen. I feel weird that our friends know but im also glad bc they know im here

Lol im on one rn 💯 idk who to talk to anymore not like i rly ever did. I feel like ive been given this new chance and im fucking it up again in this life. I miss my mom too

I miss my bff. I miss being able to talk to him at 3am when neither of us could sleep. I want to feel like i have someone like that again. I hate him for the way he is

Worst of all i miss my friends. Idk any of these friends i have rn and tbh i dont rly care sometimes. I miss a total of 3 specific people and i hated them too. Not rly. But sometimes it felt like it. Im just rly angry all the time

I just hate what ive become. What weve become?? Idk i hate being ruled by everything and everyone around me. Why do i do any of this shit. Why does ⬛️ put up with it. Why do we keep doing this

Carrie & lowell we meet again 💯

Worst time to hate everyone and everything. I just want to be alone

Lol this is my brain fr

Anyone else sit in their car and cry to german polka? Not saying i have lol why would i

LIKE WHY DO U STILL HAVE THAT AND WHY WOULD U LET UR NEW PARTNER WEAR IT??

Thought i saw my ex’s sibling near my school today so i checked profiles to see if any of them changed locations/moved round here and saw a photo of my ex’s new partner wearing a shirt that i gave my ex LMFAOOO

Shaved my head again, feel like im voldemort. Weirdest part is that 💉 is like “ahh yes finally” ????? Bro?? Why do YOU enjoy the shaved head in particular?

We finished something i started at the end of last year and i did all of it like how i wanted to even though there was this internal cringing at the rough aspects and anatomy. And it turned out really good despite that. I think this was something good for all of us

Ive been shifting between cofront and cocon these past couple of days and its making me remember that i also love drawing. Writing is definitely my thing but since we barely draw anymore, i forgot what it feels like to do it how i want to do it (more sketch/charcoal/painting methods) 👁️

Im so scared every day lol

Paralyzed by fear bc of someone elses fucking problem

This is what happens when i dont focus on myself. I lose my time, money, and sanity. I need to just do what i want and stop wasting my fucking time. I should have done 4 fucking things today but instead ⬛️ was a fucking bum instead. Stupid

Yeah so that was the weirdest fucking switch. I felt like that took a whole day jfc. I think we officially crashed out as the kids say 🪓

Want to feel that opioid high again and just fucking relax on that cloud 9

Horrors unending horrors and yet…. Snow day : )