I miss them. I want to call them. Hold them. Tell them I love them. Laugh with them. Do everything with them. But I can’t. They left me at a table where I’m still waiting for them to come back.

Plot twist everyone! I found the right meds that work! The only problem I got is being inconsistent with them… but I am getting better at it through…so I say as I forgot to take them today☠️

Especially when I sit in my own darkness like a security blanket. Or an old friend. It’s hard to get out of this man made hole.

Today is Tuesday and maybe it’s cause I know what day is tomorrow is that’s why I’m so down in the dumps. I’m sitting here at working wondering if this is all worth it. It’s hard to constantly try to think positive or the bright side of things.

Spoiler alert: I am on medication. Still in the process of finding ones that work, but I think the ones I’m currently are on is helping. I feel like it’s a right balance

It’s crazy to me how there are days where I don’t them at all then others days when they are all I miss. And to top it all off I’m still grieving a loss of a love one. All this mixed emotions are hard. Sometimes I wonder if it’s my bipolar that makes it worse or my grief.

Thank you to anyone who stays in my journey

As one who is diagnosed with bipolar 1. It’s really hard to function especially after getting broken up with. Maybe I’ll document my healing journey and I can look back and see how I have come. With still posting about the things I’m watching or reading but on my terms.

Hmm it’s been a while since I was on here. I feel like a lot has happened since I lasted posted. (Maybe cause it did)

“My loyalty is to violet. First above everything and everybody else”
-xaden

What a man

“I’ve noticed but girlfriend is missing that permanent tone” 😗

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Tairn: "Are congratulations or commiseration in order?"

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“My consort”

“Complicated loyalty “
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“Yes the table is broken” ☠️

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“You have to let go for me love”

“And he is mine”

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“It is my last name she’ll end up wearing on her flight jacket”

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“He described you almost perfectly, Dain Aetos”

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“Collect the books he wrote for you”

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“Yours will be killjoy”

Oh they so going to do it ☠️ the signs are basically there. And the fact he not a venin! Let’s be real now 🙂‍↕️