it do be like this sometimes

SoapGhost nation, I have like 2/3 of a hell of a thing in the chamber, and I SWEAR TO FUCK this year I will finish this fucking draft

reminds me of the time I warned my mother-in-law, “My hair is fresh and it WILL dye your pillowcase, so I’m happy to put an old towel down,” and she happily waved me off, and then the next day she innocently asked, “So how do I get this out in the wash?” and I had to just look at her like

dyed my hair big bright fuck-off red last week and now my post-shower towel is a Rorschach test

took a nude so hot I’m straight up mad only my husband gets to see it 😤

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A SECOND GRIM_LUPINE FIC??? SO SOON????

It was GORGEOUS. Like hard to explain the beauty and melancholy and fear in some of the cinematography, it was stunning. And superbly acted. I think I even…liked it?…(kind of…I don’t really think “liking” is the point of a film like this). But I will absolutely never watch it again.

Paid for MUBI before realizing the movie I was after was no longer streaming, so I randomly watched The Girl with the Needle instead, and OH BOY was that ever an unrelenting marathon of despair culminating in one of the most gut-wrenching, disturbing scenes I’ve ever seen.

the abrupt acknowledgement of the casual passive “meh I probably won’t be here” undertone that’s eaten away at the foundation of so many of our lives made me swallow some air that I don’t think ever left my body

there’s a lot of fair criticism of Bo Burnham, but “it’s 2020 and I’m 30, I’ll do another 10, 2030 I’ll be 40 and kill myself then” remains one of the few artistic sentiments I’ve had to just like..sit with. like damn…yeah…yeah, that’s the feeing…not the plan, but the FEELING…

“A national league cornhole player who has no hands and no legs has been charged with the murder of a man named Bradrick” is a set of words that are actually true and valid, all in a row like that, in that order

Almost every time I’ve come across an actively annoying fandom person and checked their ao3, it’s been “Works (0)”

Can we make “put up or shut up” part of fandom etiquette moving forward?

do you ever have a really impressive fart when no one else is around and it kind of upsets you that you were alone? like that was objectively really funny and no one else heard it. it’s not like a funny joke you can tell later on. once a fart is done, it’s done. toot replication is markedly unfunny.

weird looking back at old writing and being able to see the gaps. like “you were really caught up on [X theme], so much that it made you clumsy in [Y areas]”. it’s sometimes very stressful to know that you’ll likely be consistently disappointed with your past self (but that’s actually a good thing).

TRULY it is blessed, idk why they never understand how sexy it is, LIKE PLEASE, I am 34 and newly dirtbag-sexual, grow the lip pubes and let me live my truth 😤😂

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GOOD NEWS EVERYONE I opened my fic doc tonight and didn’t feel an overwhelming sense of dread, I know from experience that means *trumpets blaring, horses galloping, citizens rejoicing, for the harvest is blessed* THE WORDS ARE COMING, THE WORDS ARE COMING

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been kind of half joking with my partner for months that he should grow a moustache, and today he shaved and left it in, and fam, something is wrong with me. it’s like a full Kurtis Conner white body stache and it uh…it DOES THINGS to me 😳 the fuck is this???

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“You used to be big.”

“I am big. It’s the pictures that got small.”

Oooohhhhh I love when a classic lives up to the hype, Sunset Boulevard was a noir camp masterpiece 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽 Suddenly I find myself wanting to rewatch Whatever Happened to Baby Jane…

I watched a 3.5-hour-long French art film yesterday and LOVED IT. I’m going to watch Sunset Boulevard tonight because what the fuck else am I doing? I’m 70 pages into a book recommendation that I’d usually never pick up, and I’m loving it.

fam, this shit is WILD. therapy really do be CRAZY.

readiness is such a fascinating aspect of CPTSD bc what do you mean I’ve struggled for YEARS to just GET UP and DO SOMETHING—FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, ANYTHING—and now I can feel my feelings in real time somewhat and in the space of 2 weeks it’s suddenly way easier to throw on a movie or pick up a book

AND DID 😎🤩 She even rooted out the sheet with the big stars because I did so well 🥹 lmao passing therapy with flying colours

😂😂 essentially, “do we have milk?” It’s now the way we ask in my house if anything is in stock. “On a scale of one to toilet paper, do we have yes?”

[I do not suggest going directly from twitter fanfic discourse for your hobby to editing industry discourse for your job back to back LOL]

stg no one hates the craft of writing more than people who say with their full chest that writing is their passion because what do you mean you don’t want to learn more about the thing you apparently love so much???

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they’re arguing about grammar in fanfic on twitter again bc someone made a tweet to their own following giving totally innocent advice on how to format dialogue

you know what? I’m gonna retroactively give myself more credit here. 😤 this wasn’t repression and drafts, that’s just coping humour.

this was hard work. this was journalling and self-care and communication and perseverance and forgiveness for having the audacity to experience bumps on a bumpy road.

good friend of mine once said “on a scale of one to milk, do we have yes?” and to this day that’s one of the best arrangements of words I’ve ever heard

sleeping good, eating well, ass fat as hell, all because I have the wisdom to download my favourite fics while lacking the obtuse hubris to repost them without permission 😌 all things in balance. crops watered. pussy tight, clean, and fresh. 😌😌😌

sorry gang it’s my fault ao3 is down.

I’m finally doing a little better and trying to read a bigger variety of books this year, and I’ve just borrowed one I have finite time to read, and I guess the universe is creating some motivation for me.

love connor storrie and excited to see what’s next for him but unfortunately nothing but the unspoken social pressure of my mother-in-law suggesting it when we visit could make me watch snl lol