I am ready to worship the almighty space lamb

Definitely. 100%, YES!

Man dresses as Ash Ketchum from Pokémon stands in a hotel room giving a peace sign.

Man dresses as Ash Ketchum from Pokémon stands in a hotel room flexing his muscles

D&D miniatures in an edible cake landscape fighting a snake

A table covered in a large meal that is setup as a D&D board.

Turns out dressing up for Halloween and playing D&D with your friends is still a blast at 39!!

Walking past Starbucks and two kids are playing on the patio. One says, “you know how all old people die of bone cancer and lung cancer because they smoke cigarettes?” And the other kid replies “yes, of course I do!” And I keep walking but, damn, I want to know how that conversation ended.

It’s perfect!!!!

Really fun streamer. If you like story games, a great community, and god gaming you’ll love Amanda

AIRPLANE MODE

OK, but this song fucks open.spotify.com/track/6SUCJf...

Check her out before she's big.

God gaming over here!

Yeah. This is the last thing I have energy for for awhile. Going to chill here with my nachos and see if I gain enough energy later to do another thing.

Ok. Instead I spent the last 30 minutes typing out our last day together in an email to myself that was then suddenly deleted without saving the draft. And now I’m crying because I miss you and I love you and also I’m so sad that all that emotion and work and memory is gone.

Ok. 1 more thing. I’m hungry and nachos are comforting and I have 90% of what I need to make the perfect nachos. Let’s stand up, get out of the bathroom, and buy the one or two groceries I need to make fucking awesome nachos.

Yeah, ok. There are still good people in the world who love me and will sacrifice for me when I’m struggling. Not as many as I thought there would be when all this started, but it’s good to know I’m not the only one who will take that extra step and reach out to those I care for when they’re hurting

Do 1 more thing: look at the text messages and DMs. A surprisingly number of folks I thought would reach out, haven’t. But a several people have. Read their messages and try to remember you’re not alone and there are people who love you enough to do something about it when you’re in a bad place.

Alright. Still super sad but at least I’m clean, fully dressed, and am brushed and deodorized.

One thing at a time today. Let’s get out of bed and take a shower.

It was the worst possible news. R.I.P. buddy. You really were the best dog a boy could ask for.

He’s been tested, finally. Now we wait for results.

A dog asleep on a blanket.

My pup is in the ER. Please send all the good vibes you have to give.

LETS GOOOOO!!!! I was diagnosed with ADHD in January of this year and 15mg of Adderall a day has changed my life. my original doses helped a lot but were too low and my psych had to up them and now I'm so, so happy. Good luck to you!!! I hope this helps you!!!

Also, at the airport leaving twitchcon and it’s hilarious to see so many 20-40 year-old exhausted introverts quietly trying not to get anyone’s attention. 😂😂😂

Oh dang. Can’t believe I didn’t realize you were at twitchcon! ahhh, oh well. Haha next time! Hope you had a blast!!!

Please please please meet your internet friends. I’ve never been disappointed by it @emosupportjamie.bsky.social @catplaysgame.bsky.social @crispyninja.bsky.social @massivelee.bsky.social @cyuni.bsky.social

Huh, now that I think about it I’m almost exactly 1 week away from 2 months at the gym. And I have to agree, it’s been amazing!! I never thought i would be the kind of person who works out. But man, I’m loving it!!

Feelin fly as hell today. How’s your day going?

Well, uh, I was just robbed for the first time. So that sucks.

Okay, but what’s its name?

Let’s gooooo!!!!! You deserve it!!

Me too. I’ve been weighing myself daily. But I’ve been doing monthly progress pics too and it is clear from the pics that I’m slimming. If you exercise and are in a calorie deficit you’ll see the number go down. You may have a woosh coming too. I reco you use progress pics and not the scale.

I love therapy. I hate therapy.

Anyway, I guess there's no great point to any of this beyond late night ramblings. Losing faith was a lot of these little proofs, piling higher and higher until the whole thing tumbled to the ground and I was left with a wasted life.

Don't waste your life. Be good in spite of them. Always. 9/9