You can make your dreams come true

i started this year and im so happy i can now!!!!
i still use training wheels (aka wearing oversized hoodies and cardigans to hide my arms) but im getting better!!!!

i still feel so bad about this i tried to find a way to figure out who it was for like five minutes before giving up that was the worst ive ever felt winning at a game :(

and to rub it in the game gave me TWO achievements and a fancy new icon for murdering this poor guy. ill never use it... i shant

the other night i was playing Marathon as Rook and got adopted by a squad of 3 people who proceeded to adopt EVERY rook and take us through Pinwheel to collect all we wanted.

At the end I was extracting and there was a downed rook with me so i tried to pick up him.... and accidentally murdered him

I turned my friend into an alien cat creature and now they get to work for some very shady intergalactic conservation organization muwahaha

I think one of the most esoteric and weird things to me is listening to someone explain complex or deep dive nerd shit (like explaining a romhack nuzlocke pokemon challenge to someone who doesn't even know what Pikachu is)

Like ok let's maybe start by explaining what a Nintendo is and work on up

Idk just like how Hideku looks here LMAO

BITING YOU COVERING YOUR MOUTH SHUT UP SHUT UPPPPP

oih shoot wait this isnt my nsfw account shit fuck fuck fuck fuck

shoves my animals towards you make them pussy squirt they need it a lot

CONGRATS!!!!!

Digital art featuring a pink alien girl (Ani) jumping in the air in a dynamic pose as she extends her hand to the viewer. The background text reads: "Ani (commission)". #art #commission

Commission for @mister-saturn.bsky.social ✨

CMERE!!!! PEYE YOU PETS YOU PETS YOU PETS YOU SHOVES HOT DOGS IN YOUR MAW SHOVES WEED IN YOUR PAWS

🛰️charizard x's belly makes me Horny

Debuff hell

bought final fantasy tactics remake because i was excited to have it on a second monitor to play on the side

it only supports 16:9 resolutions

instantly returning that and installing the pc version of the switch version

More Coco

Sorry for freaking out earlier

Art is hard and scary and I just really want to see some progress from myself... Gonna not let myself think too much about it again until Monday...

ive wanted to be able to draw my entire life this is literally something i want more than anything else and every time i try i feel like im just getting nowhere and doing nothing but hurting myself and i dont want to spend my whole life hurting myself and seeing no payoff i want to cry

i need to set some kind of ultimatum if i cant find some measure of improvement by the end of the year i need to quit. i am mentally torturing myself trying to learn and if i spend another fucking YEAR working on art and seeing no improvement then thats proof im incapable of learning.

im getting to the point where i dont even really like LOOKING at art because all i can think of is how much less likely it is ill ever produce anything worth looking at

ill sit here and study it and think something makes sense and try it and BOOM same quality shit as 5+ years ago. pathetic.

i genuinely just want to cry i dont know how to improve nothing is working and theres nobody to tell me what im doing wrong or what to do next and i feel like if i dont quit then im going to spend the rest of my life stagnating and accomplishing nothing but i dont want to quit im just

i hate this

idk sorry for being so doom moded about this i just dont get it and nothing im seeing is helping me

i am a soul desperate to create SOMETHING born with a brain incapable of creating anything

my only skill is final fantasy fourteen its literally the only thing im good at and i hate that abt myself

yeah i dont think there is gonna be any way for me to improve my art without going to art school. im looking at anatomy books rn and this just... doesnt help at all. i have no idea what im looking at. none of the things im looking at help with the issues im having.

a pinup of erin looking prettier than usual

i fuckin' love estrogen

it kinda happens like every time i practice :'3
i need to make progress or my body punishes me.........

Every tutorial I find is always like "just draw the rest of the owl asshole"

im trying :'3
the bar just isnt moving idk what im doin wrong!!!!!!!

thats enough practice for the day i literally feel like i gave myself a dang panic attack from this............. idk how im gonna improve but hopefully ill find something that can help me..

i dont even know how to draw a character that doesnt have huge hips sobs he is out of my reach