Small wins: this morning I was starving after school drop off.. prepping packed lunches makes me very snack oriententated. I sat with the feeling for a bit, then made a coffee. The feeling went. First time in I can't remember how long that I haven't blindly fulfilled a craving
#Cravings
#SmallWins
I need to take care of my head too though. I feel overwhelmed by my life, as if none of it makes any sense. I'm disconnected inside and outside. I am not myself. This body is not me, I am lost. So I need to find myself. Will I reappear as the fat shrinks? We'll see x
#IdentityFracture
#SelfWorth
I successfully managed my weight for years though. So I know I can do it. The things that I did included swimming, breaking my sugar habit, cycling, running, walking, taking a day at a time. Even an hour at a time. Accidental biscuit? It's OK. I don't need to eat the rest of the pack!
#Snaccident
My health issues caused by being 4 stone overweight include gastric reflux, asthma, blood pressure spiking, joint pain (although that is also menopause), identity fracture, and image related social avoidance. I don't really know why all this just makes me reach for my next snack.
#SnackAddict
My GP told me recently that the two-bump tummy shape comes from the visceral fat pushing apart the pair of abdominal muscles we all have at the front. Gah 😥
#VisceralFat
#Tummy
#Menopause
Why do I feel so much more at risk due to my weight these days? Partly the location of it now my menopause has had her way. Visceral abdominal fat gives me a beer belly shaped tummy. It's crushing. I look like a stranger in the mirror 💔 And obvious evidence of visceral fat is scary.
#VisceralFat
Worst take, I'm eating myself to death. Best take, I'm using food to regulate my emotions and I've put myself at risk but I can change this. This is where I start.
#Weight
#WeightLoss
#WeightLossJourney
#DayOne
#220Pounds
Other things that contributed to my 4 stone of extra baggage: divorce, neurodivergence (me AND my kids), covid (less working from home, more working from fridge), and addiction (sugar!) The impact of these is less tangible, and maybe more stealthy.
#Divorce
#Covid
#Neurodivergence
#SugarAddiction
I'm in my 50s, I'm in the menopause, I'm 4 stone overweight! It happened over a few years and a few life changes. Having kids, giving up smoking, and getting older being the core reasons. I can't change these.. I have to adapt.
#Menopause
#Mum
#MenopauseMum
#ExSmoker
I woke up this morning. It's time to find a path to my healthier life. I'm recording it here for posterity 📖 and to help me keep going 🙏🏻
#Weight
#WeightLoss
#WeightLossJourney