i feel like recently all the stuff ive worked on has been super serious... i wanna draw really sappy eirei cuddles. no concideration for canon

things to draw in the margins

haha i just feel like its a lot more effecient to have everything on the same canvas. i can add more drawings with less friction and i dont have to worry about juggling a bunch of different files. consistency is easier when you have everything on hand at all times

I love stuff like this!!! Only once have I had the chance to do smth similiar with my work. I put my ocs into a group shot and i was giggling the whole time haha

i cant decide if this timelapse is satisfying or absolutely atrocious

eidens first kiss was bad huh...

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there is a balance to all of this though i feel. other peoples interpertation of stories and characters influences my view on them in a constructive way. this is a "holy shit two cakes" situation i fear. just because other people are talking about the same stuff doesnt make my contributions invalid

a wrong conclusion to come to. regardless of how senseless this way of thinking is the result is still that whenever i see fanart that i like, it makes me too contempt to try and fill the creative void myself. because its already being filled by other peoples efforts. ...

fruits of peoples labor of love. but also. it makes me decompress a little bit. i get a little less insane about whatever I was thinking about or working on. like "oh people are already talking about this thing. i dont need to hurry and finish my comic to present my case anymore." which is obv

hmmm bear with me as i try to put this into words... i feel that looking and engaging with too much fandom stuff is really detremental to my motivation to make fanart. like people are so smart and funny and make such cool stuff about nu carnival, and it gives me a lot of satisfaction to see the

that makes me very happy... i guess you can consider all the rei art i draw to be just for you hahahah

WORM!!!!!!!!! thank you for the encouragement!!!!!!!!! I FEEL INSANE AND LIKE I AM NOT THINKING RATIONALLY i have no hands and i must comic... but its true that I am having so much fun! Telling stories is really great, huh...

proof.... i even made an oc for this story because i like rei enough to write scenarios for him without the other guys from the game. he gets thrown in jail in this one btw

i told my classmate about scripting and sketching out another 15 page comic yesterday about rei and they looked at me and gravely asked "how the fuck are you doing any of this?" i dont know. i just really hope people will not think im cringe for it

i keep writing more and more stuff for nu carni and for rei and im starting to feel really ashamed... could i not put all of this energy into something more productive than fancomics (PLURAL!!!!) for a yaoi game?? but i truthfully dont want to do anything but make comics right now

i dont wanna save this sketch on my puter so im posting it here. abyssal hunter rei

i want to do terrible things to you

Unfortunately I understand why MXTX has written like six different ships where the entire dynamic is some goodnatured man is vaguely oblivious while the most intense perverted freak ever stands just behind them staring at the back of their neck like a hungry horse. It’s SO funny to write

The enjoyment that comes from drawing characters over and over doing cool and silly things is the point.

It’s playing, and recording it as you go.

Of all the kids I’ve watched drawing stories and comics, not one of them *ever* looked up and said “Wait, I have to keep drawing the same characters over and over?” or, “There has to be a faster way of doing this.”

in the lab w/ song qingshi #misvil

my mains have gotten so stale and simultaneously i feel like im trying too hard. augh, you can never win... anyway in an effort to keep this alt fun and whimsical and full of perverts let me say that i think rei should get fingered so hard he cries and cums and it fixes whatever is wrong with him

and so thats what im comparing my level of fame to. Despite not acknowledging my "big artist" status I have started to get more and more shy about posting things online. i second guess everything i type out and i dont talk about anything in an effort to stay out of view.

i got referred to as a "super famous artist" the other day and my initial knee jerk reaction to that was "yeah no way". after reflecting on it with my friends they told me im being ridiculous and that i am a big artist. it really comes down to perspective. people like kan and velinxi are big artists

gradient maps are fun

Spa therapy Job🐆

(KeshiEi / KuyaEi / BladeEi / YakuEi )

im behind on a lot of work so lets pull a late night today