So it's been over a year since I last posted into the void. In the past year I've worked really hard to get myself in shape. I'm the lowest weight and most physically fit I've ever been in my adult life. Yet, I feel the worst I've ever felt in my adult life. Funny that.
yes I realised too late that’s Halduron’s old armor so I just made it green to compensate 🤫
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Two weeks in and I'm still wholly consumed by grief.
She was the sweetest most loving dog. My little velcro baby. I quite literally lived for her. My entire day revolved around her care and well being. To say I'm devastated is an understatement.
Last week my sweet little dog passed away. Even though we knew she was living on borrowed time due to her cancer the whole thing was very sudden and unexpected. She was simply fine until she wasn't and then we had to make the hardest choice to let her go.
The Lola N/S is on my short list so I appreciate the feedback! 😊
Went down a rabbit hole looking for a new tote bag. Portland Leather Goods was highly recommended but the packaging and finish of the bags is lackluster for the price point. But I still haven't found another bag that quite fits the specific needs I have so I might roll the dice.
Next step will be a 24 hour ph monitoring test which sounds like a nightmare. They thread a catheter through your nose and dangle it down your throat/esophagus to monitor how much actual acid is splashing around. I'm gagging at the very thought of this torture.
Currently trying a high dose PPI for 6 weeks. It's currently not helping even remotely. I actually feel the worst I've felt in weeks right now.
Results of my endoscopy biopsies came back negative for all the usual suspects. Which begs the question: what the fuck?
Doc didn't visually see anything especially concerning or damaged but did take biopsies. It's wild that after 5 months of 24/7 severe acid reflux that my esophagus wasn't absolutely trashed.
Had my first endoscopy done today. It went great if you don't count the multiple, deeply uncomfortable tries to get the IV into one of my apparently very dehydrated and shriveled up little baby veins. My hands are wrecked. But otherwise it was a breeze.
Everytime there's a blip in her health I can't help but fear I'm looking at the end of our time together. It's a nightmare.
The trouble now is wondering if this early morning vomiting is the sign of a flare up of her regular issues or if it's a sign her cancer has progressed.
Before the cancer my dog already had 2 difficult chronic diseases. IBD and canine intestinal lymphangiectasia. We had them mostly managed with occasional flare ups here and there.
I have no where else to talk about what I'm going through with my dog so unfortunately this place is it.
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I've been on a super restricted diet the past 3.5 months to "lifestyle change" away the horrific acid reflux I've been having. I can tell you it 100% didn't fix the reflux but it did absolutely destroy my will to live.
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And fellow AFABs, if you think you're having a heart attack say you are having chest pain even if you aren't. The ER will be more likely to run an EKG and tests if you say that. Also push to have your blood tested for troponin. That was the test that spurred everyone into action for my dad.
The takeaway from his story is don't wait. Don't wait, don't wait, don't wait. If you feel even remotely feel off, get help. If he had waited any longer he'd have died. As it is, waiting so long severely weakened his heart more than if he had gotten help right away.
It's wild to think he nearly died less than a week ago and now he's back home playing World of Warcraft like nothing happened. Marvels of modern medicine.
Within probably less than 2 hours he was being wheeled back for an angioplasty. He had a 99% blockage in what they call the widowmaker artery. 2 stents later he's back home. His heart is very weak but expected to recover.
I almost lost my dad to a heart attack last week. He likely had it while sitting on my couch on Thanksgiving but he just thought it was indigestion. And then, so he wouldn't worry my mom, waited 6 days before deciding he felt off. I ran over, he said chest discomfort and I called 911.
Most dogs are gone within weeks of diagnosis and we don't want her last remaining days to be miserable from treatments and risky surgeries. Instead we are going on lots of walks and doing lots of cuddling which are her favorite things in the world. And I'm trying my best to stay upbeat for her. 💔
After a ton of discussion with our wonderful vet we made the tough decision to just go with palliative care for our little dog. Everyone who knows us knows we'd move heaven and earth for this dog and spend any amount if we knew it would help. But all we can do is keep her comfortable this time.
My dog has cancer. She is the light of my life and the reason I get up in the morning. I'm devastated.
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孫六さん㊗️実装一周年