It’s weird getting to know my husband again after the first year of parenting. This is our first real break since she was born so we actually get to be ourselves. I really hope he is enjoying time with me as much as I am with him

Super stoked for the hockey game tonight. The other night they went to extra time and a penalty shoot out and won. I would die if that happened tonight. Literally my dream scenario.

Be fine but like, she hasn’t seen him in months so it’ll take a little bit for her to warm up to him and we’ll be 6 hours away and fuck!

P is getting annoyed with me walking around doing things and asking him to help clean. I am SO anxious about leaving. My gpa just died yesterday and my mom was in the ER yesterday for a recurring issue like wtf, how are you not anxious about it? My brother will be here too to help so I know it’ll

I have the huge mental load of trying to get everything ready for baby, dogs, and me. Baby and dogs are staying with my parents. So I’m trying to think of anything that will make it easier for them. I was up at 4am worrying about what else I can do to lighten the load. Meanwhile,

E was up screaming from 10-1230 last night. She’s now hacking up a lung in her crib. P is downstairs and I can hear him coughing too. I quit.

I’m pretty convinced that P doesn’t really feel that bad. He’s acting totally fine and nothing about his behavior is telling me he’s sick. I think he’s taking advantage of it and I’m gonna get fucked. After a full week of work. I just need a fucking break.

E fell asleep an hour earlier than normal cause she’s sick. P is getting sick. A kid threw up during our family event today. 2 teachers in my room went home sick today. I just fucking can’t. This is going to be such a long fucking night. Jesus god help me.

Feeling validated. P stayed home with E today and said that he needed to go to the bar tonight. I feel like he doesn’t understand how hard it is to stay home with her all day when he works so I’m glad he got to experience it 😅

So really REALLY hoping it doesn’t come to that 🤞🏼

E woke up crying in the middle of the night several times. It was her “I’m sick” cry. No fever this morning but I know it’s coming. Thankfully we already have a doc appointment on Wednesday but I’m gonna get sub plans ready for the rest of the week. Neither P or I can really afford to take days off

Waiting for bedtime and trying to time the last bottle and putting her down is an anxiety I didn’t know existed. Not my fave.

Because I always back down. I never cause a scene and never stick my neck out. I am the passive observer who just takes it. I don’t think I want to do that anymore.

Every aspect of my life is a mess of leadership fucking over the little people. Work, the HOA, the whole entire fucking country. I’ve finally put my big girl pants on and I’m starting to sorta stand up for myself. It’s not going to make a difference and it’s mentally/emotionally very taxing

P enjoys that luxury 3-4 days a week 😔

Daycare told us that we could take longer breaks off since I’m a teacher and not pay. Which is SO SO great and I cannot believe they offer that. Selfishly, I’m a little bummed that my whole entire time off will be spent parenting. I’d love a couple days to myself while she’s at daycare.

Ugh. Finally made it to to Friday after a long week following a break. P works overnight tonight and tomorrow night so my weekend break is anything but 😔

Oh god. E has 2 teeth coming in. I have a full week of work coming up. This is gonna be the worst. Why do people do this? And then do it more than once?!

I am not rested, relaxed, or ready to go back to work on Monday for a full week with kids. Fuck.

Last weekend was a great weekend to be a Husker. Basketball, volleyball, and football all won huge games. This weekend…is not 😔

🤞🏼🤞🏼 getting real nervous about it

Me at work on Monday after a week off

Twas a bummer

To be rude and unsocial and I’m already annoyed. He already tried to make the excuse that there are “too many germs” to take E as if she doesn’t go to daycare every day? If this was his family and their idea he wouldn’t think twice but he’s gonna be a grump and I don’t want him to go 🤷🏼‍♀️

My brother is in town which I’m super excited about. We’re all going bowling with some family friends tonight. It is absolutely not P’s preferred atmosphere or activity. He worked night shift and gets off this morning. He is going to be complaining the whole time about how tired he is and he’s going

I just called a parent and they answered then got annoyed because “they had a client and had to step out”…don’t answer the phone then? Your child doesn’t go to school here yet so it’s obviously not an emergency. Just…listen to the message and then call back?

I suck at gift giving. Unless someone tells me exactly what they want, idk what to get and it stresses me out.

First PP period. Forgot how uncomfortable tampons are 😩

I also decided to have another drink which was obviously a terrible choice cause I’m in charge tonight so every time she gets up (so far 2x an hour) I get to deal with it. I have made bad decisions.

Fuck. E is sick. Just woke up screaming in her “help me I’m sick” scream 😔 it’s gonna be such a long night. Such terrible timing 😔😩😔