TWO hours left, still stuck at $385 to go to stay housed 🥲🤞🏻 can we get to $125 so I have SOMETHING to give them in hopes of giving me until tmrw? everything helps 💞
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You know, maybe I'd like red wine and Coca Cola together. I don't like red wine generally, but the Coke syrup could do it for me
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They were upset at how emotionally numb I was during the trip. It wasn't like me to not be vibrant. My uncle kept asking what was wrong and what I was thinking and I'd realize i dissociated. I felt so guilty for mimicking my ex's lack of emotions. I was trying not to fall apart crying.
They felt the same way, I think, about me because they realized finally that I didn't have a childhood. I didn't have actual parents to love and cherish me. Grandma didn't tell them anything and it makes me so sad that they thought I was crazy for no reason. They know why I have anxiety now.
And for the first time since grandma died, I did sleep like I would at Grandma's, even without AC. It was so nice to belong. I wrote them a very personal note stating I'd leave my ex and that I needed them now more than ever. I told them I was scared. They cried when dropping me off.
I do want to send photo boxes to them to hold for me while I move. Don't know how to ask them. I don't know how to ask them to show up for me because this is atypical. I'm still family, though. I paid to spend four days with them the last time. All I wanted was to rest there and sleep.
That's I think where he realized he misunderstood me but that misunderstanding revealed that he would travel. That makes me sad because I needed him here when I left my ex and moved and when Grandma died. I needed family then. But I wasn't asking them to do all of that.
I told them I got a Hungarian tutor and learning books for free from someone today. I'm trying and I watch tiktoks in Hungarian. I reiterated that I miss them a lot. When we had our sharp exchange I said they were my only family I have left and they are important to me - a VERY traditional value
I told him the general plan and he seemed happy that I'm organizing it, but I'm wishing I could change it to France rather than Germany. Hungary is really bad with the medical system right now. I would not have good care there. People often compare hospitals in Hungary to abandoned buildings.
He approves of my dog though. He says that he has kind eyes and he must be official if Grandma liked him (my grandma never liked animals). I am trying to soft launch the possibility of Duckie being in Hungary with me. I don't think they'd mind because Duckie is a good boy. He'd like their balcony.
Although, I do need a biological family member to visit and help me through Grandma's stuff, I wouldn't force them. He did surprise me when he said he would if it's necessary. I guess Grandma talked with him in his sleep or he's actually interested in visiting for my health.
He added a smiling emoji and all because he could tell I was hurt he didn't want to create new memories but he said that thinking I wanted them to come here this time. He's willing to do it, but I said I would never force them to come here now because it's dangerous.
I told them sharply that I would be homeless without a family friend right now. I have one friend in her 70s who is my emergency contact in NC. I told them she would contact them if anything happens to me. This is when my uncle clarified that we misunderstood something and he hopes I do move.
And they also told me that they love me, which is nice to hear because Hungarians don't say it enough. But then he got defensive about how he wants to treasure memories we already created and I argued for new memories because that's the whole point of life. He thought I wanted to force them here.
He didn't come here when his sister was dying but I called him and let him have closure that he didn't get when their other sister died suddenly. I video called them for the funeral. I asked what they needed from me since a family member just passed and they said they know I'm there in spirit.
Talked with my family in Hungary and my uncle said if there was an absolute necessity he would visit but I'm really far away. This was over a misunderstanding - I was talking about visiting once I live in Europe. It intrigued me because I have needed them for three years and it is urgent.
I haven't stopped even when NC has kinda made it illegal but I'm ready to justify why I need the mask, I love wearing it bc no makeup needed
I'm leaning toward that too! Lots of beautiful constellation tattoos
my roommate is reading her bible with bright lights at fucking 5:50 am, something she could do IN HER FUCKING ROOM
I AM SO DONE WITH HER ASS
I am disabled. People don't think so until my balance fails, I fall, I hunch over and need a cane, and taking forever to get out of the car sometimes.
I didn't listen to my doctors and kept running when they told me to stop or else I'd never be able to run again. I'm now unable to do that.
@4wheelworkout.blacksky.app i'd love your input, as long as it's not a berry bowl
i want to get a tramp stamp because my artist is moving to Maryland and I'm spiraling and he's the only one who can do my skin with EDS and make the tattoo flawless
I was thinking the Leo constellation or the sign that looks like a girl with a pony tail
what would be unique to me? help
Dude, I am unemployed for over a year and have no money for even myself. Don't do this to people that you don't know.
I'm going to DC in July - last time I went was in January 2020 and it was cheap to go, but now airplane AND train tickets are expensive as fuck and I am terrified to drive in DC. Anyone have ideas? I have to go to the Hungarian embassy. I really wanna be able to fly in, fly out same day.
I need to pay someone to be my emergency contact, who would be interested?
i'm very isolated and depressed and in a very bad place :) why am i here
ÉN MAGYAR VAGYOK
HUNGARY FINALLY VOTED OUT A DICTATOR. HALJA MAGYARORSZÁGON. WE WANT TO BE IN EUROPE AND WE REMEMBER 1956.
