sometimes it feels like in furry spaces people only really care about you if you make them horny, otherwise it's just silence

A billboard for a car buying service, the caption reads "10 days to return if your golden doodle doesn't fit"

This billboard is begging for a horny redraw I think

Literally my fantasy 💕

I'm attacking your protogen bf with a flipper zero, now he registers on your switch as a corrin smash bros amiibo

being a pervert about fictional characters with my friends

Meme image of Sonic saying "I want shorter games with worse graphics made by people who are paid more to work less and I'm not kidding". The text has been blanked out so it reads "I want games with gay people who are woke and I'm not kidding".

The way some of y'all draw holes makes me think you tried to fuck those gummy peach rings

I just know for a fact a trunk jobs gotta go hard

I think to conclude this mental breakdown - I should prioritize myself more often as opposed to what other people want.
I mean putting other people's happiness in front of my own is how I got stuck in two not great relationships so lesson learned I guess lmao

Eyes on the prize, and also we are all fighting to keep our nsfw rights. Shut the fuck up and let people live.

Besides being funny and being a good listener I don't have much else to offer outside of sacrificing myself for others, cause yeah why else would you keep around an awkward 6/10 idiot who's bad at sex in your life if you didn't get something out of it?

(continuing the sex shit)

I also have breathing issues which makes oral tricky, my flexibility isn't there, and I'm just genuinely not good at performing sexual acts outside of using toys ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯

So maybe it's a combination of struggling with being a people pleasure and being bad at sex

Oh also doubling back to the asexuality thing - also doesn't help my dick don't work lmao

(CW: sex shit, TMI)
I have an uncomfortably tight foreskin and I can't get it past my head, there's been a few instances it's made sex hurt. Plus I can't stay hard, and I struggle with physical stamina

I've made myself into a tool, a pack mule, an errand boy, a charity. I've stripped myself of my own identity for the benefit of the world around me.

Sometimes that kindness gets paid back, other times it gets taken advantage of.

Maybe I need to look at what I want instead. Who I want.

Then people see that I disregard my own feelings and my own life and demand I give up more of my time for them, more of my money for them, and they take advantage of my want to be seen as helpful and kind and useful.

What am I if I'm not those things, y'know?

I've made it too much of a habit to disregard what I want, because what is it that I want? Sleeping in, video games, going out occasionally to window shop? Not as important as what everyone else wants. Drop everything for other people, helping is all you're good for.

And maybe my desire to be seen as useful or helpful or caring has alienated me from people. I struggle to communicate problems or adequately speak to solutions because I don't want to be the center of attention and I don't want to make shit about me, you have enough going on, don't worry, etc

That might stem from this idea that I NEED to have some sort of value to another person in order to justify my existence, both in life and in this relationship. I need to provide satisfaction, care, and support at all times regardless of how I personally feel and if I fail that I'm a bad person.

That's not to say I don't enjoy serving the other person sexually, if I didn't enjoy it I wouldn't do it. I think I've just sort of disregarded any of my needs in order to satisfy others first in too many situations but especially sexually.

Huh.

I wonder if my leaning towards asexuality came from associating sex with ensuring the other person experiences the most pleasure and disregarding my own feelings towards myself

Maybe I try too hard to satisfy other people all the time that I should focus on myself too.

Queer weirdos make the best art, the best music, the best friends you'll ever have

Never forget that