I was supposed to marry my fiance in 13 days...instead we chose a different route and have to plan another date that we don't even know yet because of how inefficient bureaucracy is...my heart hurts...
I've...been toying around with the idea of doing a subathon/donothon to help with wedding/immigration costs...but at the same time I know it likely wouldn't work out well because I simply don't have the audience/get enough raids anymore...maybe someday I will...
Seeing/noticing ghosts can be...very exhausting...
I will never understand why people go out of their way to hit certain animals with their cars :( there's been way too many in the area I live in lately...
It's sad...
things I wanted this year u.u sadly the build a bear bat is still out of reach for me, and the bat bedsheets I wanted...but I was able to also get a couple throw blankets so...not entirely bad? Though honestly there is also some baking stuff I wanted too and a few other things u.u is what it is
After a rough few days, I decided to get myself a new blanket for my bed, and after sleeping under it last night I think I made a good choice. It's warm without being TOO warm, and it's also very soft and cozy, plus fits my aesthetic fairly well XD I'm glad I was able to get one of the Halloween
It is incresingly difficult and frustrating when your favorite animal is a bat and you can only find bat related things easily between August > October...but whatever cute bat things you do wanna get are bought up and resold for idiot amounts...maybe I'm just being oversensitive...
I have an appt this afternoon...I don't wanna go...I literally just wanna stay in my room...I hate how upset I get after Melon and I part ways...usually I'm the one leaving, but with him leaving it somehow hurts worse...can the gods please just give us a break :( I would really love that...
Being in a relationship doesn't mean you won't feel lonely...because goddamn do I ever feel that way a lot lately u.u
town...they try to deliver there on the weekend when the place is closed =.= they're literally the worst shipping company I've ever had to deal with...
I really...REALLY...loathe when companies use fedex to ship things to where I live because 99.99999% of the time they deliver to the wrong address because they just look at the street address and not the town or postal code =.= it's extremely frustrating...and then when I get it held somewhere...in
Heya Mews! Imma go live with some WoW now. :3 I hope ya'll will join for some fun, okay?
Gonna try to do some higher keys again ^^ TRY! Lol
Ya'll are incredible. Thank you for being here and shining with me.
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it is, and I have enough to last well over a year lol though I have a feeling they won't because my mum is prolly gonna use em once the current detergent is done >.< and like...I don't mind I guess but still...
Having to cha ge laundry detergent because you keep waking up with hives is awful TT^TT I genuinely don't mind the scent of the detergent we currently have but it's causing issues :( back to unscented detergent I gooooo lol the pods were cheaper than the liquid kind which I found odd but it is what
Please note; this time of year is extremely rough for me. Talking about m*rder, attempted or otherwise, puts me in a very heavy headspace. I'm not going to go into details, but please be mindful of what you say in chats (whether my own or others) because certain things can and will trigger others...
The shampoo and conditioner bars I got, a solid 8/10 purchase, smells nice, shampoo lathers REAL well without much effort, the conditioner bar however takes a bit more effort but then again I also have a lot of hair on my head so XD
The concept of shampoo bars has greatly perplexed my fiance and everytime I think about it it makes me giggle XD
future together is being dictated by bureaucracy and red tape...I dislike the not knowing...I dislike having to be on a timeline that I have no control over and being at the mercy of someone else who can decide whether we can be together or not...it all just hurts...a lot...
almost has been bad enough...idk if I can do that again...and I hate saying that...5-6mos ok I can do...but apparently longer than that just feels like someone shoved an ice pick into my heart and decided to wriggle it around on a daily basis to cause me pain...I dislike this...I dislike that our
and I feel selfish for it...but only seeing each other once or twice a year sucks...and I'm trying to not screw this up, I really am...after Melon's visit next month I genuinely don't know when we'll see each other again and if I'm being honest? That kills me a little...being apart the last 10mos
hurts...all of it just hurts...and I keep asking myself lately if it's even worth it...I know he's my person, but I also don't know how much more pain I can subject myself to yunno? And I hate that I've had that thought process...I know there's couples out there that don't even get to see each other
Being in a long distance relationship is hard...not knowing when we're gonna see each other again hurts incredibly so...I'm trying to be strong about it, I'm trying to be patient, but it hurts...a lot...the not knowing hurts, the sleeping alone hurts, the not being able to be held when I'm upset
to provide any possible improvement to any mattress x.x but now I wait for the laundry to be done so I can put the sheets and such back on my bed...which reminds me tbh I should buy more sheets I only have the one set >.<
the old mattress pad in the wash (there's literally nothing wrong with the mattress pad tbh but the foam topper I got came with another one and there's no point in having two lol) now I have to find a garbage bag big enough for the old foam topper because it's...unusable...it's way too thinned now
Welp, I wanted to rearrange my bedroom but I got a quarter of the way through before my body went "wtf are you doing? No." :| so I at the very least moved my bed lol I also removed all my bedding, the mattress pad, and the previous foam topper on my bed and put the new ones on and put my bedding and
Being an adult is so expensive TT^TT I'm thankful I have a supportive fiance who helps when he can but goddamn, certain things like pillows and mattress toppers should be less expensive :( I'm glad I was able to find a mattress topper that should fix the problems I have with my bed, but still x.x
As much as I appreciate getting to spend time with my aunt and uncle again after so long, I am just...exhausted x.x my social battery is so depleted lol
Trying to find any of the MtG: Final Fantasy boxes for msrp rn is absolutely insane...There is no reason for the 200+% markup I'm seeing most places D: guess casuals aren't allowed to have the pretty art :/
Do you ever look at your spouse/partner and go "holy fucking shit goddamn" and lose all cognitive function because you're literally just THAT attracted to them?
I know it's silly but after 4 yrs for one, 3yrs for another, OUR PEONY BUSHES HAVE LIL FLOWER BUDS FINALLY!!! I forget what color they are though ._.; they've never flowered before lol