unironically telling myself that my plushies dont wanna see me get sick and be sad anymore so i need to quit

have not caved in yet to buying weed lets keep going 💪

🌼 We All Live in a Yellow Submarine 🌼

everywan on magma so nice 2 me…what if i crieded

NEW PFP art by @ /ryrybeans.bsky.social aauuUuu SO GOOD THANJ YOU THANK YOU

my signed sixwing cd got crushed in my ex’s old car when it got demo’d x _ X and the cover was just empty so i revamped the art to use for a mini badge

【Music】clusper (ft. Chi-Chi) YouTube video by Vylet Pony

youtu.be/kUUVChv2U1M?...

WHAT THE BHELL

tmi but i pooped 3 times since i woke up. what in the world

i still dont wanna make a habit of getting too comfortable sleeping anywhere but my own bed but. apparently have been enough that i sleepwalk there

btw my mom specifically offered me that bed cause its larger and that room in general has no allergens in it before anyones like. wtf

must have gotten up to piss or something and then just gone back there on impulse but its weird because i have 0 memory of waking up or doing that. bad thoughts give you bad dreams and the bad dreams make get up and walk…… /lyr

last night was weird. my parents havent been using their bed cause theyve been away so ive been using it to sleep, its bigger and my bed lately has been too small/cluttered for me to get a good rest on i need to fix it. but i went to bed in my twin bed last night and woke up. in the other bed???

crosspost from main but i’m like. obsessed with her. i might draw her more and make a full ref tbh

wake me up by avicii is so nostalgic for me what the actual fuck. miss you dude

they need to make a sedative for boys

harper solstice jerboteez and his constant fucking internal moral dilemmas and feeling like a monster over nothing

Patricia Taxxon - Beast Creature YouTube video by existereOracle

youtu.be/MJaOxZweslY?... came to u a beast, i came to u a creature

no wrong i love u

just a lil something to take the edge off 🍃

snarl at ur friends!!!!!!!

me and the red bull iced edition against da world

thank u i needed to hear it yeah im just. i think the trick is to not give up after 3 weeks cause thats really the point at which things turnaround w the dopamine ive heard

it just feels so weird being sober like i cant even emphasize. i used to just get home and instantly go outside and hit my pen hard. and then suddenly it was 5 pm. feel like i have so much time

plus i just feel dishonest having gone back and forth on it now, i’m making a plan and sticking to it. if they drug tested me as a substitute teacher it would land me in hot water even in a legal state anyway. its for the better

in time the dopamine reward that my brain naturally produces is gonna come back i just have to be patient about it

i would get 21 days in before like 3 weeks and be like. yeah no i have to have it, i’ll reward myself, i can do it in moderation. I cannot. i fucking cant

ive been seeing the impacts that my over-use has on my health and my relationships and its. not good. im finally at a point where i cannot do it anymore like theres not even a little part of me that wants to continue, if there is i acknowledge its the part thats hooked

i know ive quit weed like 7 times and failed but genuinely this time feels very different

msybe i should draw to get over my fears that im a bad artist sober