I'll be 20,000 days old on July 30th. Might be a good time to call it.

Phillip K. Dick said that reality is that which, when you stop believing in it, doesn't go away, which is how I know trans people are real

Britain Still Has Conversion Therapists. Here’s Why. YouTube video by Philosophy Tube

The response to the conversion therapy video has been amazing. I’ve gotten messages from lots of NHS staff appalled to learn about the present-day abuses, who want to hold senior managers to account. As I say in the video, allowing this abuse undermines the entire NHS! 🏥

youtu.be/_S5w18sjYLk?...

Considering a new trans day between TDOV and TDOR called Cis Cunts Fucking Do Something Day

my brand is being unbelievably disappointing

meet some real cool people from the local discord and then proceeded to avoid them more or less

then i did my ol' French Exit

i should patent that shit

if i wasnt so drunk rn i'd try to figure out how to finalize this shit once and for all

genuinely so fucking worthless tbh

such an embarrassment to myself at all times everywhere

sorry for being irritating, abrasive, overly sensitive, and/or vicious. that's the honest core of who i truly am fundamentally, so cutting ties with me is both appropriate and healthy, and i can't blame anyone for that. it only ever gets worse tbh.

i've taken the usual enigmatic steps of blacking out my pfp's, putting absurdly dramatic, vaguely suicidal Latin in place of any bio, & outright deactivating some of my accounts again. I'm considering permakilling some of my socials, just so i'll hurt kinda good. It beats cutting. Sorta. Not really

i've gotten much better about not flying COMPLETELY off the handle. Still, the temptation is strong to abuse my brain chemistry, take dangerous risks, and burn every bridge to absolute cinders in an act of severe and dramatic self-sabotage

this is why i don't/can't have any close friends anymore

i get real reckless
i'm too sensitive right now
bpd's a bitch

life is rotten enough without antisocial media

i'm in a dark place
happens a lot; i'll be fine
it just hurts is all

been a good few weeks but that feeling of hopelessness and friendlessness is coming back & hitting all my synapses at once

tbh it's like welcoming an old close friend back, just one who maybe wants you to go away & die a bit of a lot

alright okay is there an Ides of APRIL then

1/ Did you know the gov't is merging 314 separate details about ur life into one system? From your mother’s maiden name to your bank account number & student debt. This is not just paperwork. It is a massive effort to centralize the details of your life. #DV1 #ProudBlue #Voices4Victory #USDemocracy

Operation Shower _
Operation Nails I (fingers) _
Operation Nails II (toes) _

Operation Dye Hair ✔️
Operation Dye Ears ✔️
Operation Dye Neck ✔️
Operation Dye Shirt ✔️
Operation Dye Hands ✔️
Operation Dye Face ✔️
Operation Dye Bathroom Surfaces (10% finished, gave up)

HOORAY I'M MAKING PROGRESS

Operation Shave Face ✔️
Operation Shave Legs ✔️
Operation Shave Chest ✔️
Operation Shave Hands/Arms ✔️

SOMEBODY give me a MIDDLE NAME

* gender-neutral but great for femme
* not old-timey
* works well between "jae" and "lethe" (pron. LEE'-thee)
* preferably feels gothy, eldritch, or futuristic/scifi/cosmic
* not too fantasy-esque or flowery or clichéd

black weight scale with the number 168.4 on the blue digital readout

haven't visited this neighborhood in a while. just passing through though....

A real comedy-of-errors trick shot in the dark! My thigh above my knee is sore from that superhero catch lmao

You shoulda seen me just now. Stepped over the babygate in the dark to leave my music room, started to drop my metal water bottle, reflexively loosened my grip to re-grab it but then my vape also fell; knee meanwhile flew up, knocked bottle back into my hand right as my fingers closed on my vape.

once states flat-out outlaw *trans*-GAC it's all over, and by "over" i mean *i need to finish this thought in a mostly-empty room where there are no recording devices and i can be reasonably assured i can trust all the people i am acoustically speaking to*

4th Circuit Rules That States Can Compel Trans Adults To "Appreciate Their Sex" Via Care Bans They ruled that states "encouraging citizens to appreciate their sex" through care bans is a constitutional goal, affirming West Virginia's Medicaid ban for trans adults.

www.erininthemorning.com/p/4th-circui...

this is a massive leap forward in the struggle to literally eradicate us transgender people

it's that huge, only ✨nobody's panicking✨ because this is the "nice" version of their plan which doesn't literally use actual physical violence against us
...yet

Getting my first grown-up big-girl bra at my age is more than a little mind blowing ngl

#EstrogenIsMagic

I'm getting about fed up, and i'm gonna start posting spicy content here soon