Fraymoth - Twitch [18+] 🌕 ah 💫

hi I'm here www.twitch.tv/fraymoth

I'm trying to cook before I stream... but my energy levels are really low today. I cleaned my dishes but now I need to actually cook...ugh

Artists! Quote with your blue art! 💙

This is old but it's the bluest thing I could find...

Kind of eepy but gonna work on comms www.twitch.tv/fraymoth

yeah they put my name on something w/o telling me and then when they DID tell me they didn't want me to tell a lawyer 🥰

I told her they wouldn't cooperate and give me the paperwork she was asking for and I think she understood why I was angry with them in the first place lmaooo 💀

okay I overcome the trauma my parents were using to manipulate me and called the bankruptcy lawyer, and I guess things will be fine they just have to swear under oath. 🤪 And I won't get in trouble for their bs!!! So bankruptcy is back on I just have to pick up the shards of my mental health first

OMG YOU REMEMBER HER????? 🥺🥺🥺 That means so much thank you omg!!! 🥹 It's good to see you again!

I agree it’s really disappointing when it’s a one and done and you’re like damn I guess I won’t see poc in this style again 🥲🥲🥲

Thank you!! 🥰

I might give Chloe a tummy though... She doesn't need rock hard abs 😂 I'll have to think about it... it's more realistic I guess...

🥲 because of that, it has always been important for me to keep her as afab, even if I change her gender. I always felt like my body type couldn't be athletic because I never saw it, so she's important in that way. Broad-shouldered with a big chest and big arms is the main thing I focus on with her.

Her story explores the line between spirituality and mental illness. This is the usual picture I post when I'm describing her. I made her Jojo-esque out of spite because my ex-roommate said women were naturally weaker and it pissed me off.

For those unfamiliar, Chloe is an unusually tall and muscular woman who is honestly very gnc most of the time. She doesn't *hate* wearing femme clothes just, doesn't feel as comfortable. She was seen as a "monster" as a child, especially coupled with her hallucinations. (c)

I keep trying to move on from this OC's story but she has such a chokehold on me for some reason... I guess I relate to her a lot more than I thought when I created her.

anyway all that to say I'm trying out making Chloe black.. I gotta learn to draw cornrows #art #myocs #ocart

Then again this is also from the background of someone who wanted to do comics and other media for a living ;;; I hate that I grew up that way, it was very damaging for my creativity and really pushed upon me by my parents lmao.

I know it seems silly, but that stuff really stressed me out when I was just a dumb teenager. It changed how I saw my work. Like I'm glad that it made me draw more black characters and connect to that more, but I don't like that I felt stressed about like... making sure everyone was accounted for.

tl;dr make what you want, you are not obligated to make anything a certain way, that's kind of the point of self-expression.

I also think the push was more towards white creators, which like.. I get, but I see why to some people it felt disingenuous. Just amplify more non-white or other minority voices... you don't have to make the white creator make a rainbow of people.

I guess this is also why I don't care when non-black ppl don't want to draw us. It's like ok, just amplify black artists then. Would I like them to learn? YES. Do I think they should be forced to? No, I don't think that's the point. It should be made out of love not a sense of duty, anyway. 🤷🏽‍♂️

basically like, you can express just your experience and the experiences you relate to if you want to. you don't have to try to express every combo of person possible. I feel like that's obvious for some people, but for me it really wasn't lmao

and I think it really made me distance myself from relating to my characters too much. I wanted to express *ideas* instead of myself. Which is all good and well, but not always the point.

trying to let myself be selfish with my creations more;;; like, the whole point is to express myself, which won't always look like me, but I think I was so afraid of making mary-sues when I was a kid...it was like the quintessential worst thing you could do

lmao I hate the push there was for like...performative diversity in creative work. I can't believe tumblr made me feel like it was my duty to express every single type of person possible. 💀 Like you can if you WANT to but I don't think there should be pressure to especially if you're not on a team

I've had some insane recommendation chains that have led to cool opportunities and sales! Never underestimate what sharing or even just word-of-mouth can do for us 👏

Am I a hater if I have no idea why we went to space for that recent mission and instead am just like “wow I wonder how much fuel was used for that…”

we outta here www.twitch.tv/fraymoth

Quilava !! 💥

I hope it kind of resonates for some people. I was having a hard night last night lmao.