Maggie says it's time to watch Deus Ex! My first time playthrough to be precise!

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Or at least I haven't given up. That's probably the better distinction. Most days trying is too exhausting to do, so I wait and try again another day. But I haven't stopped.

As you "see" trans folk today just ask yourself if you really see them. Or if it's just a short glance before you turn away.

It's no secret I've been struggling. I've been watching my show implode since coming out three years ago. "Same but girl" was enough for some folks but I'm still continually hurt by how many that were close to me left, but also how many community members also wrote me off.

I do keep trying.

I love yuzu! I'll keep an eye out

Blue Hawaiian and Punk Punch are my two favorite flavors so it really is!

A variety box of pink Punk Punch, white Ultra Zero, and Blue Hawaiian Monster

Why yes, I will purchase the transgender monster.

I don't know about anyone else but "I'm calling about your personal loan request." has been so much worse than "trying to reach you about your car's extended warranty"

Finally got around to clearing all three OG Criterion Savage dungeons! Epic Hero unlocked :D

I need to find a better place for lighting and the plating was a little sloppy but this was a dang tasty late night BLT.

I think my biggest struggle moving forward is going to be not feeling discouraged as I rebuild my stamina, my motivations, my drive, and myself. I spent so long feeling broken and undoing that is going to be an active and exhausting process.

One step at a time.

A brand new chapter, heck a whole new book is starting! The gay cottage arc begins symbolicly on my 13th Anniversary! Gaming is back!

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My Viper portrait makes me feel feelings about my character...

Hi.

My phone put those 3s there, I'm not cool enough to do that myself.

I've b33n feeling cute again lately. We're live with Mario + Rabbids for the first time!

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Pumpkins with letters that spell "goon" on a store shelf

Being normal at Michael's

I love this little goober so much

I'm settled enough for a show, so let's make it a WILD one! Mini Subathon to round out October and catch up on some of the horror games I still wanted to play! Decarnation, Heartworm, Mouthwashing, and who knows what else???

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Look Outside is hands down one of the most intriguing, haunting, horrifying, fascinating, and downright scintillating games I have ever played, let alone just this year. The 2.0 update just dropped and I'm so excited to have another reason to explore it.

I looked outside and it was beautiful.

She gives me shrimp and kisses and that's how I know she loves me.

A small black cat somehow taking up an excessive amount of space on an air mattress.

She likes the air mattress. Too bad it's for one night. Tomorrow I get the space settled and stream ready, but for now I'm happy she's comfy.

A small black cat laying on a blanket on a hotel bed while a small sheet serves as a tent above her.

I also owe this little tater tot my best. She's been my unflagging companion and shown so much bravery on this trip. "I don't know where I am but that's fine because mom is here"

I'm moving 900 miles and basically starting fresh after my divorce. I've beaten myself down, told myself no one wants to hear anything I have to say, and otherwise been wildly unkind to myself.

I've been shown so much kindness that's even allowing me to do this that I know I owe myself better.

The 13th Nightmare has begun! In glorious nightvision once again, we're kicking things off with POST TRAUMA

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Awww ty so much Ellie!

Silksong is giving me life again.

More of it!

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I caved. I can't not.

Silksong (marathon?)

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Girl with a hornet tattoo too afraid to bury herself in the Silksong directory during launch week.

Truly one of the tragedies of all time.

TWO WEEKS. OH JEEZ. SILKSONG. THIS IS NOT A DRILL.

I've been processing a lot of life stuff, it's definitely been a stressful time. I've basically been in survival mode for a year and I'm trying to figure out how to get back on my feet.

I'm coming out of this divorce in a messy spot and I really just want to be able to start over as clean as I can.