Bug hates Dostoevsky and leaves.

TO MOM=
PLEASE COME PICK ME UP ASAP=

THEY ARE BULLYING ME AT THIS MORSE CODE CAMP FOR FORMER GIFTED CHILDREN .

Feeling good about a job opportunity. Unfortunately my body is a machine that turns unrealized hope into bitter resignation. I need this.

Every time I tell my ISP I don't want to upgrade my plan I find my connection starts being unbearably bad.

Me: Everything feels pointless and difficult and I'm waiting for the meds to start working.

Morrissey if he invented the refrigerator explaining it at the patent office: There Is a Light That Goes Out

Today I had such a nice day.

They put me on medication because I was playing too good. 😔

I was playing Puck (mulitplayer Ice hockey game) and channeling absolute peak Connor McDavid wondering how I'm so good. Turns out I was having a panic attack lmao

"We're aware you might be having trouble controlling your life right now. How about we meet at 9 am on a weekday to start working on that?"
Thanks that sounds great.

I don't want to sleep. Tomorrow always sneaks up on me when I sleep.

This is from Friday. I found myself at the same spot over a year later. Didn't think I'd still be here.

I can spend weeks idealizing suicide just to forget it all if I get a little pocket money. Why did I spend all that time wanting to kill myself WHAT WAS THE POINT? IT ACHIEVED NOTHING! Anyway listen to Boy Harsher it's great stuff

Sometimes it really does feel like I'm forced to watch helplessly as a giant syringe injects HOPE into my solar plexus

Every evening I write in my day planner for the next day "Seek help" and then put a X next to the one I had written the previous evening.

Had a shit day so I ate a burger. I've made it to ten weeks sober.

On the plus side I've been sober for 6 weeks sooo.. yay poverty?

Wait a whole month for an application to go through and the whole time they were waiting for me to do something. I'm going to starve and its my own fault lol

I have ads on Spotify again and I hate ads so I'm just going to get really into Swans and GY!BE

Good news! They said they were all out of paying jobs but if I check back in a month they might let me work for free.

Spending my last two euros on a bus ticket to the job factory. Hoping they got jobs there. It is the job factory after all.

This album has gotten me through some real anxiety ridden days.

Whoever you gave it to, I'm so envious of them! <3

crudely drawn sad looking cat with an arrow pointing to it with text: "full of worms"

born to bite and chomp on my own arm with all abandon
forced to worry about long term bacterial infection

half a tab and beach house - depression cherry (2015) would probably fix me rn

epic gaming alcohol time...oh no...epic gaming alcohol time...oh no...epic gaming alcohol time...oh no...

Don't want to pick up the diary and pen. I have a feeling I'd be filling my pages with foreshadowing.

Perfectly normal video featuring a perfectly hinged item name.