The only thing that has kept me going, was cause i did not want my family to be sad because of me. Im mentally in a better place now, so ill be fine.

March of this year especially was probably the darkest times ive had so far. I felt trapped and lost, all because of the lies ive told, though out the years, kept piling up, until i couldnt keep it together anymore. I just wanted to give up at that point, i did not care if i had a future or not.

What if i never got that head injury? would i still be the me who i am now? or will i become someone else? someone better? Would i have met the people i call my friends now? Would i havea different sexuality? I dont know. There are times when i just want to be someone else. Someone better than me.

After that, i noticed a lot of thing changing. I felt slower than usual, I wasnt able to keep up with my studies and found it hard to talk anyone. so ive kept quiet. What made me believe it was my head injury was cause of the clear drop in grades. I felt like i lost a part of myself.

Apparently i was "knocked out" for a day or two after that... but also kinda not. My mom told me that i was awake at some point but kept repeatedly asking where my brother was or other questions. How the doctor described it to me and my mom was like if my pc was on, but the monitor was off.

Those were the last things i remembered on that day. After that, i woke up in the hospital. I still remember how weird my head felt when i went to touch it. It felt like if it were as there was a hole in my skull. I could just feel skin and tissue where a part of my skull should be at.

I kept poking until they started to get annoyed. When they went to the bathroom, i poked them and ran. That was the biggest mistake i could have done. Because it was raining, a bit of water was on the floor, and because of that, I slipped. the left side of my head hit the ground and got knocked out.

Around 10 years ago, I suffered a head injury. I dont remember how bad it was, but i vividly remember the day it happened. It was exam day and it was raining. I did well in the exam and finished early, but got bored of waiting for everyone else, so when someone else was done, i poked them.

I could have been a different person. I used to talk a lot, was very energtic, smart and confident. I was 3rd honor in my class for 3 years straight, went on math competitions, was friends with everyone. But something changed, i cant tell if it was gradual or instant, cause something happened to me.

I keep forgetting that many of my favorite fruits exist because i havent had them in awhile. Like atis, aratilis, tamarind, jackfruit, rambutan and langsat. We had trees nearby that grew some of them at my hometown

Phone doodle

BRUH the one time i dont check the ice cream tub in my parents house AND IT TURNED OUT TO BE ICE CREAM AND I DIDNT HAVE ANY😭

I forgot that i used to have a lisp up until high school. I would say "s" with my tongue between my teeth. Reason why i forgot i had one was cause i just fixed it in like a day and repressed memories of anyone mentioning it. How i was able to fix a habit of 10 years in a day kinda baffles me lmao

i have so many art pieces that i actually like but cant post cause im still working on the friggin com sheet!!!!

The gae realization panic of a teen when they didnt read all the dialogue

I like playing stardew valley. i choose penny as my partner cause i liked her. But like during year 3, i started to befriend the other npcs... i was completely oblivious to what i was doing with shane until i got to the 10 heart event.. pretty funny way to start figuring out i was also into guys.

Hai hai, i completely forgot to mention this but. I am open to commissions... for a few months now... details and a com sheet will be posted soon... hopefully. If you are interested, you can dm me here or thru discord

Does anyone know what sungka is. Cause i had like a flood of memories come back to me the moment i saw one. Back when i didnt know about the internet, it would be the game i would constantly play with my cousins. How i wish to return to those times man.

One of the biggest highlights ive had with the game was when me and my brother were in the same room, during the release of zoroark, when he won a raffle from a certain content cowboy, he got zoroark for free a week early

I really miss playing pokemon unite, i think the last time ive played was 2 years ago, i was really competative too.

Userpage of Semmichu -- Fur Affinity [dot] net Hai hai, i go by Semmichu or just Semmi online. . I speak english and tagalog, di mo maiintindihan ang sinasabi ko dito hehehe. Ill be u ...

Before i forget to do it
I have a furaffinity account
I recently dumped ALL 114 bolty fanarts in there (yes, even the very old ones)
So check it out if ya want i guess

www.furaffinity.net/user/semmichu/

Oh forgor to mention, im in college now... expect way less from me now lmao

Sadly i dont have pics

Today, i found out that me and my brothers all have our own rock collection.

i finished an animated emote today and have a cool drawing idea on the way

Went to the dentist today and im in pain...

Not from the dentist no, i fell down the stairs on the way to the dentist

Oh my god, i have stubbles...

IM GROWING A BEARD!!!

Oh btw... i guess happy pride and not so happy bithday to me? Idk, i made this artwork a bit ago and forgot to post here but since the day didnt go so well... whatever, i worked hard on it

Welp, without a doubt, i can comparatively say that my birthday today was just as bad as last year

I only now just realised how strange elephants are

I just spent 1 hour and 40 mins writing about something that ive kept bottled up inside me for so many years and i accidently deleted it somehow, i was ready to spill my heart out right then and there but now i dont feel like doing that anymore