The former. :P

I would wager any connecting themes relate to what's going through your life between each drawing. It feels like you're decompressing and venting those feelings through what you draw.

Is your inspiration to draw you tapping into a stream of consciousness, or is there an underlying theme you're communicating?

Rain, Portland Street crossing Oxford Road, Manchester, painting by Rob Pointon.

I'm starting to feel more confident, but that seems to come with a dissatisfaction with my current situation. I'm starting to want to end my debts and improve my quality of life. I don't need to be rich, just content.

You might see me hustle a bit in the future. Videos, streams, voice commissions.

commission for steyr

Let's gooooooo!

I know artists that just use it as a tip jar. Could create a discord server for people to chill in. Whatever you're comfortable with.

Looking forward to it!

Healing, trauma recovery is worth the effort. The effects are all encompassing. I've found my singing to improve because I'm less afraid of being heard. I've discovered insecurities in my writing that were less obvious to me a year ago. The words flow better now with less of that internal critic.

It really does become ingrained in one's identity. It is becoming part of a more healthy identity as I heal, but you have this feeling like you're desperately trying not to take up space because even an ounce of any resource is more than you deserve. That's perception, not reality.

Having low self work can be dangerous to one's health. Stuff that would have people running to the doctor for are shrugged off. Maybe this chronic insomnia I've had since high school is just simply "what I deserve". So nothing abnormal there. Seeking treatment? Nah that's weird. (Sarcasm)

Fair points. It's easier to imagine more demand for an updated game than there is for a movie. I feel like I would hold skepticism for anyone tackling a movie with the themes of Bloodbourn who isn't DelToro. I'd like to hold onto some optimism, but this isn't a straightforward concept.

A message from you, as with many of my an acquaintance, would often be a welcome reprieve to a dreary week, but I always figure people have their own lives to deal with. Becoming absorbed in the machinations of the many can become unhinged like the guy I share a wall with >.<.

Yeah when I saw the news, I tried to summon some excitement but largely felt confusion? I don't really follow these guys so I'm not even familiar with their public personas. I just kept thinking that Iron Lung was likely responsible for this. But, Bloodbourn? Really?

It's unavoidable as long as you continue. Improvement is inevitable, which is especially cool because your art already slaps.

You won't see me complaining.

Resolve can get me through a crappy day for sure.

There are different ways of getting calm. Sometimes you just gotta go with whatever works. I've heard lectures about stress management and half of it is giving away control of certain things. Easier said than done.

Rest well.

It's hit and miss for me. Some days I'll draw random people into whatever conversation sparks my brain. Today, however, I want to defenestrate anyone who says more than two words to me.

Online thrifting is a thing?

I don't even bother checking clothes at the thrift store anymore. Huge waste of time. I'm looking for the expensive tech and kitchenware some fool priced at $5. *Holds up Breville toaster*

I was pondering something like this today. I wonder if there's a part of me that feels like anything I touch is tainted in some way. Undesirable. It's not helped by how supportive my friends seem to be for others but silent for me. That might be just my perception though. Validation is lacking.

The cognitive dissonance of an ever present negative self worth being hit with a compliment is like that effect where you hear your voice spoken back to you at a slight delay.

I don't want people to stop trying, though. Maybe one day I'll believe them.

I drive for a living. I'd be very happy if I wasn't necessary.

Hegseth being in Hungary right now is probably a good indicator that it is not going to be nukes... But I don't even know anymore.

Coming to terms with it here in the USA. If you're poor the powers that be want you to shut up and die.

I operate on the assumption that people are too busy or have better things to do than give me the time of day (trying to fix that). What's the opposite of parasocial? ^_^;

Here's proof just in case you thought it was funnier than I actually am.

I'm okay being tall, but I want to be parkour sized :/

I'd do rideshare if my car wasn't a 22 year old grandma of a car (Pontiac Grand AM which a previous owner rearranged the words to read GRANDMA)
$38 In 3 hours. Hopefully I'll get lucky. I'm thinking just an hour or two after work.

In today's episode of screaming into the void for likes and validation: I'm door dashing. Trying it out for a few days to see if it'll be worth it in this podunk town. I might be better off heading into the city. $10 yesterday, 20 today so far. Trying not to spend that money on some teriyaki chicken

This job where I drive all day is making me pine for a work at home position.