The loving couple in happier times.

We do need each other. Only the two of us can really comprehend how profound our loss is. I’m glad she’s back to sleeping on my pillow again instead of where he slept. She has her tail wrapped around my arm right now. Nights are very hard for her but she’s much better during the day.

I’m only riding in the parking lot so far until I get a bit more experienced. But it sure is fun!

Me too… I was missing the constant snuggles but didn’t want to pressure her. I think Churu treats helped a lot.

What a gorgeous panther! Thanks! I hope you have a great weekend! We finally have some good weather here in Toronto!

I got my mobility scooter today and I am quite the public menace, I must say! My confidence is not weighed down by skill in any way and there’s nothing quite like the fear of dying in a low speed scooter collision with a goose to make you really feel alive, you know?

I hope she doesn’t flaunt her special status too much and make the other stuffies jealous!

Chloe is Velcro kitty again finally!! Only she would find a kneecap to be a comfy pillow… I’m so relieved that the hiding phase is over. Now I need to stay in this spot unmoving until she decides she’s had enough Velcro time.

Even your stuffies are adorably dressed! I love it!

I will see if I can find one because that sounds fun!

I’m so excited to be able to go to the library and to a cafe. Maybe get gelato! I’m able to walk about 800 m unassisted so this means I can go more places than church and the pharmacy.

Thank you! Chloe seems to be doing much better today. We had a visitor yesterday and she stayed in the room the whole time and didn’t hide. That encourages me.

Thanks, that makes sense. I’m hopefully getting a mobility scooter tomorrow so I can leave the house occasionally. I love my tiny little life but right now it’s just reminders of losing him everywhere.

Thank you so much

Thank you. You’re very kind

When does joy return? I’m using my happy voice talking to Chloe while tears stream down my face. She’s not fooled. She’s grieving for him too. She’s sitting where he used to and crying her heart out. It’s been 2 weeks without him and I don’t feel like the grief is lessening for either of us.

Thank you! You should see Chloe’s eyes in the sunlight. They look other worldly! If only she would consent to getting her pic taken more often…

Chloe finally came to me for an actual snuggle!! And she tolerated having her photo taken, even acknowledging it! She hates hates hates getting her picture taken so I am extra lucky today.

Lovely photo!!

Emeralds are gorgeous!! I’m giving Chloe as much love as she wants which sadly is less than before he passed. She’s spending a lot of time in the bedroom window sill and under the bed. She was such a snuggly Velcro cat before so it’s doubly lonely right now.

I love gemstones and he loved anything sparkly. Call me crazy but I think he found a way to tell me to lavish love on Chloe today instead of grieving him never turning 7. I wish the dream was longer than 3 seconds and we got to snuggle but I love that his focus was on her.

Kennedy showed up in a very short, surreal little dream. He was pointing to an emerald and said “cherish the emeralds too”. I woke up confused until I remembered birthstones. His birthday is today (diamond) and Chloe’s is May 2 (emerald).

Thank you! Yesterday was a hard one but today will be better. My parents are coming to visit for a few hours and take me out for lunch in hopes of getting my appetite back.

Pretty girl… it looks like she’s wearing a Venetian mask to a masquerade ball!

I was missing Kennedy so much today. I hung a suncatcher in his memory with some of his fur in it. I was resting in my room and had literally just thought “I wish I had a sign from him or a dream of him”, walked to the next room and saw this bright red light on the wall. It faded right after the pic

Thank you!! Today was hard but tomorrow will be better!

Is there such thing as a Protestant church that still believes in Jesus and atonement theory but isn’t plagued by obnoxious men with horrid political beliefs and a lack of impulse control? Fuck!! I need a Protestant nunnery because most of the ladies seem sane.

I don’t want to leave my church but enough is enough!! The church I had been attending instead has nicer people but doesn’t really focus on scripture. The Easter Sunday service was about emotions and Zumba and not Jesus, you know? But the minister is a wonderful human.

I’m so emotionally raw after Kennedy’s death and maybe it wouldn’t have hurt so much if I weren’t already so emotionally shattered. I have to mask. I’m still recovering my baseline from the flu I got at Christmas. Why can’t people just leave me alone?!

In 2026 I have attended 5 times and 4 of those times I’ve been accosted by men with political opinions they feel they must force upon me completely unsolicited. The one time they didn’t was Good Friday because that was a silent exit service.