I might actually fr be demisexual and aro somehow…

Loser yt boy i want u

People laughing at my jokes 😃 maybe I am the shit

I love her a lot actually we’re live on the same lengthwave Im so grateful I have her :((

I’m not the strongest solider in da world actually i‘m gonna cry I miss my best friend so much

10 day ayo drought. I’m the strongest solider in da world

Hitting up fine shyt even tho we havent spoken in a month am I a bad person

I need to talk to someone who is sexually attracted to me

Fine shyt WAS here but I fumbled so bad :(( negativ rizz

Fine shyt NOT at the function maybe I’ll just go home :(((

So sad :((

It’s so sick how usually I’m super touch adverse but the minute I’ve drank a little I’m super touch starved

3 essays in 2 weeks I am so locked out :((

I have a buzzball I’m saving for the perfect moment but I don’t have amy one to drink it w :(

Oh.

GROWTH ✨

Something about what mitski said about opening the window but instead I open tiktok 😔

Oh ok ik what’s wrong, I need to go out and be drunk at a club or something 😭

Also I’m becoming embarrassingly aware that I’m using BL/fiction as an escapist device, which is an historically bad idea but it’s easier than confronting myself

ARGGGHHH I HATE BEING SELF DEPRECATING

it was easier in Lancaster but being at home reminds me of all the ways I haven’t changed. I’m still a giant loser tbh

i feel so lonely and simultaneously overwhelmed which is making me jealous and desperate and entirely too concerned w everyones opinions of me

im not a good person oopsie

Sometimes u have to look urself in the eye and accept that u are the problem

Aww no I’m not 🥰

did it come?

Humiliation ritual to be sat at table at a wedding as the only single person :D

I’m falling for it again

It’s actually not :( I keep getting that evil blur filter