I started humming this children’s song I know in Swedish and translated it to English in my head. “Our earth is not great.” x3 times, then “it is not that great.” and I was thinking, well, I suppose. That’s a valid conclusion.

(‘Great’ in reference to size, but given the state of matters✨🙂✨)

I keep hoping Trump is bluffing, Denmark is a beloved sibling nation and Greenland is a peaceful semiautonomous region, and it’s really not fun with all the invasion jokes ppl are making.

I can see people in the US are suffering too. I will never have anything against the ppl. But I hate Trump.

is it a happy new year or do I force myself to laugh by drawing laughing OCs

doodling on the phone but I can’t see what I’m drawing cuz I use my finger

My man Sixten doesn’t know what laughter is

I don’t like uploading art post genAI but I will one day until then

Hahahaha your way through life

New year huh. I hope everyone is doing well.

Waiting for the genAI bubble to burst and to see if EU Chat control gets passed in some form or another and following what Palantir is doing. Until then, I’ll speak in riddles.

Hmm.

Moustache or no.

Hm.

Moustache…
Hmmmm.
I gotta get back to work.

I just remembered I’m an artist making a game, not actually writing a book, I can just animate the cadence in the text box and character models

Ohhh the sweet girls 😭❤️❤️❤️

I’ve been purposefully avoiding to use em-dashes in my writing but it is such a useful stylistic choice for setting cadence, what am I supposed to use instead. 😭

Oxford commas and em-dashes perceived as indicators of generative-AI rather than the other way around, that it is learned from human writing, really gets to me.

Blerb.

I will be back someday, currently just on a writing spree! Sorry for no updates, thank you for your kind words. 😭

I’ve also re-read so many books from my childhood, like Agatha Christie, Frances Hodgson Burnett, Jane Austen, Dostoyevsky, etc. And so many random publications and books by philosophers I both hate and love.

I ignore generative AI by studying the past! I’m so happy!

Good night!

I will get back to messages tomorrow, I must pop into sleep. 😭

Just wanted to say I think I’ve written half a novel for my game while laying sick in my bed (most days). Once done, I just need to implement it. I’ve studied so much linguistics, prose, history, psychology, urban planning—

I’m not touching that again though!

I finally managed to pick up some writing again, too. I’m majorly restructuring my game story. 😭

I’ve also been trying to read random history, and I’ve been watching ”What’s my line” from the US 50s and I love Dorothy Killgallen, and I’m so sad over her fate.

It’s not the assistive research I’m worried about, like protein structure prediction/folding or material discoveries, etc. Though like I said, I don’t have the brains, I’m just learning a little as I read. Training ML to project billiard/pool balls and collision has nothing on this. 😭

I’ve been interested in machine learning ever since I was little, but I never had the brains. Lately I’ve been reading some peer-reviewed papers about LLMs and LDMs specifically, bc they’re either the issue or precursors to bigger issues. I love science but hate when it ends up in greedy hands.

What do I think anymore, or how do I even think 😰

How do I assess or address the current waves of ML/AI, whether commercial, open-source or government pushed? Job-displacements? Expanding scopes of ID verification, that comes with security and certification vulnerabilities? And (general) sustainability? Are we going back to a decentralized web? 😰

Kidding, that’s what people who hate artists want. I’m gonna finish my game someday, and all without genAI.

It’s also hard to motivate myself when I see all the new games using generative-AI for their pipelines, releasing in such quick cycles. I feel like I can’t keep up, no matter how hard I try. GenAI is just not for me. Maybe it’s time to phase myself out haha~ 💩

I’ve been taking a long break from game devving mostly due to health issues, I really want to get back to it.

It’s so hard being a solo artist, so hubby does the programming entirely. I haven’t done code since I worked in the Godot engine. But two engine changes really was tough.

Watching platforms that are generally good get swept away by payment processors too, for NSFW content, while the same application doesn’t solve big issues like CivitAIs (or other repositories) tens of thousands of user uploaded SD LoRA models, fine-tuned to output deepfakes.

Thing*
Hiatus* (But only for a short while I hope)

sorry autocorrect 😭

A tier list of FF14 characters being the first think I post in ages, unexpected huh.

Else; Game dev is temporarily on status, as I’m researching other tech things right now.

This is just a tier list for funs, the only ones I actually can’t stand are in the F-rank. 😭

I wasn’t so worried back then, but for the past few years I’ve been very worried.

I would love to find ways to live away from generative AI, get healthy and well and make games.

I also don’t post anything because I’m waiting for generative AI to be properly regulated. It’s slow.

2014-15 was the first time I heard of semi-public generative AI, Googles DeepDream. It had a lot of issues, destroying itself through feedback loops.

I used to be able to search for relevant information to study with, it’s become so much harder with all the generated garbage only a decade later.

Ahah sadly I’m not as active anymore though, thank you for finding me ❤️ life is busy so projects go slow, but hopefully I can update this account with more stuff in the future 🥰

That’s totally understandable, I keep away from fandoms as much as I can nowadays for that reason. 😭 and they do deserve the world 😭😭😭

Thank you for reaching out ❤️ Even if I don’t draw them anymore, I still adore them. I’ve also been trying to get better at ignoring people. Despite it all I’m glad you enjoy yourself in the fandom! 😭

(I’ll be continuing to read both recommendations 😭💖💖)

Thank you so much for the recommendations 😢 I actually went and got Pete Walkers book and started reading it. I’ve been out of therapy for a long time and was starting to have bad relapses, this came at such a good time. It’s already helped with the little I’ve read (out of order though haha)

Although I joke, I really am actually very glad you took the time to write, it’s good to know I’m not alone and I feel kinda relieved for posting. 😭CPTSD is so crippling, you keep gaslighting yourself all the time. I hope everything is going as well as it can for you. 😭