i really wish i could find a discord server for this community that isnt incredibly toxic and competitive
#caterpillarsky

410 breakfast. hhhhh

i know that i eat as a form of emotional suppression, and the food noise i have aquired is madening

Today's the day (๑•̀ ᴗ•́)૭

Today is the last day I'm allowing myself to rot. Tomorrow, I try to get sober once more, I start tracking again, and I do what I can to take care of myself and my environment. I'm tired of being this way.

The biggest issue right now is probably my addiction to alcohol. The amount of empty calories I consume. My body feels terrible. But my boyfriend struggles too and we feed off each other. I wish I had support from friends or something but everyone I know I cannot really confide in or rely on.

I haven't used this account in a hot minute but I keep gaining weight so I probably should. I just don't get a lot of alone time and I don't want my boyfriend to know how bad my mentality around my weight has gotten.

I'm certainly being pushed towards that. I appreciate you ♡

Things have been so bad and it's been making me emotionally eat more which makes me want to die it's a fun cycle.

I'm going to try to fast for the entire day. Hopefully my boyfriend doesn't notice too much.

I couldn't find a tracker I liked so I made my own. To be used for the rest of the month once I make a thread

Tougen Anki hates women so much

I finally got a pedometer so I can have an accurate number for my steps. I have a desk job, but I'm up and down constantly, and usually, I forget my phone on the desk so it doesn't capture all my steps. Excited.

i smoked a bit while I was at it because fuck it. metatron was already wrong for believing in me.

Cals going up tonight cause the new apple fireball came out and daddy needs to get drunk

I didn't wake up early enough to dry my work clothes, so I had to wear the one scrub top that makes me feel like a whale because it's a size too small. Wonderful morning.

Cals today, 1290. Still too much. Starting my next fast now.

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gw: 190 ✦ lw: 170 ✦ ugw: 170
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I've done my exercise 3 times today so far I'm proud of myself

Having a desk job while trying to lose weight means getting up every 2 hours to do a mini workout in the bathroom

Time for a new account. I've reached my limit with my body and need to hold myself accountable and make some real progress.