Nooooo 😭😭😭😭

Oh god yeah i would say it takes at least a year but yeah you are right and im looking forward to getting better and feeling better ❤️‍🩹

🫂 you gotta do is get through today im also struggling today as well

I am going to be 100% honest rn

I am so unbelievably fucking exhausted right now I just want to have a nap

Ran out of coffee so I used my mum's matcha ?? Cause I just need something to give me energy

I fell asleep at 10pm last night wow am I actually thriving rn

Morning peeps ✨️✨️

I meant nothing to him the whole relationship was bullshit

I just wish he would message me but its been a month he's not gonna fucking message me

I feel so so so so so so lonely

Maybe if I have one more beer and watch something funny i'll forget about him or at least fall asleep

💔💔💔 ah im so sorry you're going through the same thing i wish I could just turn it off 😭😭

Seriously whats the point in getting into a relationship when they just fall out of love with you randomly years later

I really really miss my ex and he doesn't miss me or love me or think about me

I tried to have a nap but I just ended up getting anxious so im just gonna have another beer

I feel like shit though

Then again he would always oversleep and I wouldnt hear from him for the majority of my shift and sometimes I would go a whole shift not getting a reply cause he was asleep so it was nice to not feel like im waiting for a reply

I didnt realise being back at the office would make me miss my ex because I work in the city he lives in and knowing I can't go over to his after work or message him throughout the day or tell him how my first day back at office was

I was gonna have a drink and then have a nap but I just need to not be awake

I feel utterly broken ngl

So i survived my first full shift back at work.... barely

Hey peeps ✨️✨️✨️

Oh my god nooooo that is the worst!!! I can't just feel it in my eyes 😭😭😭

Thank you honestly that was perfect I really needed to hear this 💖

Thank you 💕 yeah im still in the early days its only been a month so far 😅 i just cant wait to not care about it

Thank you bug 💖 its gotten alot better it just sort of hits me randomly now which is good in the sense that I feel okay most of the time but also I am very unprepared when it does happen 🥲

Why did break ups have to physically hurt as well 😔

Clearly I need to journal again soon everything has just been hectic with packing and unpacking my entire life

Oh btw in real life I barely ever mention my ex or that i still feel like shit going through the break up cause Im worried that I just come across as boring and pathetic and a burden

Almost gotten through April which will the first month in 3 years ive not seen or spoken to him