#Foxhole Airborne update with Tracker insisting to wear the Medic Maid uniform.

I'm in a place called Thurnscoe. Barnsley is pretty rough looking, so it depends on the part you're in. But yeah, prices? Not high.

Well. It's where I live. I'm not trying to escape, but I do have family literally streets away from me.

There's just no call for a response like this. Ever. If you don't like someone's art, that's fine, that's valid. But don't you dare say you're the one who gets to decide what's good art and what's not. Not in this fandom.

Uhh... What? It's fucking ART, not something with an expiry date. Just cos it's not someone's cup of tea it doesn't make shitty comments like that okay. Not on at all. I'm sorry your talent made them feel they had to try to take you down some pegs.

A piece for Sil, who wanted a little rainbow shine to their scales!

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Bittersweet

I'm sorry, you've been putting what up where?!

Some amazing art by Katz once more. I've started to admit to myself that I really do enjoy being a little more colourful sometimes. Well, pretty even.

*sends ALL the hugs*

Everything went fine yesterday. Ended up not needing the bands in the end. Wasn't fun but at least its all done now.

Thankies, me too ^^; All tied up is quite literally what will be happening >.>;

Oh yeah, 5 days of antibiotics, so that scuppered a few days of drinking! But (no pun intended) luckily there was no pain or anything, just a worrying amount of blood. The A&E weren't worried about it at all and sent me on my way saying I'd get contacted later. Apparently now is later.

Thankies ^^; I'm sure it'll be fine, I hope :P

My arse blew out the day before I flew out to my all inclusive holiday, because of course it did. >.<

Oh awesome, just in time for xmas.... Hrm. Suddenly there is a new box under the tree to unwrap.

We should normalise having sex with your friends, just for fun.

Sex is about connection and intimacy.

Love doesn’t need sex, they are independent values in one’s life so I don’t get why such one should limit yourself.

Haemorrhoid banding apparently. I thought I was just going in for a scope >.>;

Errrr. And suddenly, I'm in day surgery on the 1st of December >.>;

OH! True!

In other news, I am a horrible snotty mess still ;.;

This is supposed to be my clean account >.<

I haven't posted in ages, why? Because of depression? Anxiety? Worry? I mean, yes they're all things but no... It was because my post count was 200 and I didn't want to break the nice round number >.< thank you brain.

This is going to be tough. I woke up this morning wishing everything would just end. I don't know how hard I'm gonna be able to fight against those thoughts because I've never been able to stand up for 'myself'.

For someone like me who struggles to even care about myself, it just gives me more and more evidence that I shouldn't care about myself. Yet then there are the few and the family that push against that and all you feel is guilt that you're burdening people with your pain.

It really hurts to see so many times you've put so much of yourself into a friendship or any kind of relationship and then something better for them comes along... that you've usually introduced them to. And the next thing you know, you're forgotten.

First therapy appointment done... Nothing said to work on just yet but pointed out how I have clear struggles with dynamics of relationships (friendships etc).... I just finally felt better breaking down and letting out how once I'm not able to give anything, I'm usually just tossed away.

You know what. You win.
I'll find a way out of everyone's way for good as soon as I can.
I'm sorry I was only worth your time when I could give you things. I hear loud and clear that you don't want me around.