like cool. good for you i guess. but it doesnt make your thoughts any more valuable to me than one who doesnt

>>> backing up your theory or opinion by saying you have a phd or whatever

ive been torn from my roots

sorry i dont know how to have, hold, make or start a conversation. i literally dont know why, how and when this happened to me

on the other hand ive been getting nothing but nihilistic/pessimistic dreams :(

ive been going to sleep earlier and lying on longer in the morning this past month

ignore my last 4 posts.. i was going through it for a moment TT

i know where you were kafka

at least i have kafka, lispector and dostoevsky

i feel like i betray myself each time i speak

its all a frustrating ball of unnameable nonsense

i suffer in another realm, theres none more frustrating. though what i suffer exists, and so exists in this world, it is unworldly.

its not exactly that i need to suffer more, its that i dont wholly affirm unto myself and feel what i suffer. its like i am split in half

This is how I post

reading benjamins experience about that time he took hashish in marseilles makes me feel like i need to try weed one time before i die

That I got out was just luck, or lack thereof

think of a life which only seems to know how to find some semblance of comfort when its relation with the sun is mediated by a pane of glass

The street lights behind the trees atop the small mountain look like stars with all their flickering due to the rustling of the leaves.

7.30am. Still dark. Its saturday and I don't hear the noise of cars in the distance, there's a peaceful quiet with the sound of wind, light rain and a tin can blowing around the street. I opened the window and have been sitting by it, it's a little bit cold but I have a gown, blanket and a hot drink

i dont care so much for the technicalities

pile after pile

the question of taking a leap of faith is not dissimilar to this, can you wholly confide in yourself?

sudden burst of sadness out of nowhere for no reason. 1 minute im fine then next im with a grey filter

the composure cats have no matter what is kind of hilarious

being a drop out was both the best and the worst thing to ever happen to me

same, very very same

why is it almost 2025

things are moving huh