Everything we touch turns water into blood
You try to look away from even when the bough breaks
You don't really love, you just hate to be alone
You hate to be alone
You hate to be alone

3 baking mixes

Ready for my birthday 🤘

Doesn't take away the part where it's still a disappointment.
Doesn't make it any easier.
Was always lying to my classmates how I got a toy so cool I wasn't even allowed to bring it because of how expensive it was.

Bwah bwah fucking rubbish life of mine

I'm a bit scared of my birthdays now. That little kid inside me is still crying silently, all curled up and hugging himself because he was so brave and said oh no thank you I want nothing.

It's much better to not be surprised by the disappointment.

Other kids were always saying how they got money or toys and I never got any money at all because it all just got taken. I've never received anything really.

It's not that I never wanted to have a birthday with all those balloons and a cake.
It's that mine was always disappointing.
I could never ask for a present.
The funniest part was of course I wanted stuff but I knew I wouldn't get it.

I wouldn't mind being alone.

I have no desire to educate anyone on anything. I have no desire to be near those people. And yet I am right there.

Fuck.

It's impossible to balance being queer and living your life as you want if you decide to tell people you're queer. It's fucking impossible.

Pride month is good but getting fucking anxiety today of all days sucks absolute ass.
I don't fucking want to come out, I don't give a fuck about none of people who don't know enough to let them know.
But then this fear hits and I realise I can't just keep sitting like this.

Fucking tired of existing and then some moron goes "of course you can just do it"

NO. NO, I'M ABOUT TO STEP INTO THE PERLY GATES IF I HEAR ANOTHER FUCKING "WELL I DUNNO HOW TO DO IT"

ME FUCKING NEITHER. TRY HARDER.

Functional depression is so real. Bonus point when you're *great* at your job.
When you show up and your coworkers make it some universal rule that you have it easier.

Me considering the planes of asexuality instead of rereading stuff before the exam is the top me behaviour.

For me 4 years ago this tea rn would taste like heaven

Yeah. Yep.

When I'm depressed and despaired but then there's some music I love and so many onions I can saute

The first association that comes to me about my hair colour is baby shit so I absolutely can't take serious ppl who compare it to nice things like gold or coffee or whatever

I need to stop thinking "I'm suicidal anyway" every time some shit is going on and I dive in

Album so impacting had to go to the woods

I'm fast but suddenly being sad because I saw I'll love you forever book is catching up to me

I am so fucked over I won't ever roll back to being "normal"
Its not sad per se, but kind of hurts sometimes.
I can't believe this stuff is real most of the time because there is no way that this could happen to our polite Johnny boy who read a lot of books and had no friends because mummy said no.

I'm having a major headache and I don't want to know why my back hurts that much honestly

Made a pancake that looks like a sea creature

Pretty

I thought that caramel is the big speech but what if this part of the emergence is actually about ppl who bother with ruining the anonymity.

I'm hating on the people who whined I do get why ST did that but I still want to bite everyone who whined

Tbh it feels so bad to have the track announcement early.

It's like if someone went and told me what were the plans for the surprise new year party.

Slowly puts the handful of them in my mouth

The forbidden Turkish delight

It's not good

I have an avengers soup