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hey, it is a beautiful inversion of the 40k quote haha

thank you for this!

ultimately i don't know if i could or want for now

but hey, atleast she'll know that her creator loves her, always 🥰

it is a bit bittersweet, haha

i made this after reading helen o'loy & after rewatching bicentennial man.

rlly made me realize that maybe making a character a robot carries a bit more weight than i initially thought, and i probably need to do more artwork that explore it!

thank you!!!

machine yearning, and body dysmorphia

touched some grass and brought my sketchbook with me for a change

i almost forgot just how much fun putting real ink on paper is.......i think i am falling in love with drawing again

thank you!!

and yea i should stop caring about that haha. i guess it subconsciously weighed on my mind *a lot*

........didn't think i'd feel this way, but hey, good thing fear of losing numbers is somewhat common. should be easy to find more ppl to talk and trauma bond with lmao

also got to re-read some peak like fire punch, fujimoto 17-26 short stories etc

and i caught up with apothecary diaries......it's such a good series hhh i didn't expect to enjoy it that much

i got to read a lot tho which is really nice..............

re-read some old SF classics like do android dreams of electric sheep, man in high castle, etc. and i think i'm halfway through the moon is a harsh mistress rn

just recovered from a long ass typhoid fever that i got from late dec (yea bad rng roll, living in SEA do be like that sometimes)

god i feel so guilty for not posting and being super ""unproductive"" as an artist, but i have to admit the break from social media is kinda nice lol

at the end of the day, i am also miserably sad cause even with all the venting here, i'll still be forced to suck it up and still use x to get commisions~ hopefully to funnel ppl here.

it's already so hard to live as an artist right now, and it hurts that i can only be a hypocrite right now

thank you for being here 🙏

---like, i really feel like i am getting marched on to the execution wall by the firing squad now

and it's a public spectacle, because a lot of ppl are free to call dibs on my organs when i die, heck they could even choose personally where to aim and what bullet to use

and now that the unloved megalomaniac man-child found a way to ruin the space and enable soulless slop generator to participate in butchering my passion with one click, i think i'd be damned if i don't atleast speak up somewhere

tbh i just keep to myself and refrain from posting my thoughts, bc i want to focus on posting my art and be happy with my small lil niche, without having to constantly worry about fighting people in the internet

fop!!!

asdghjkl i wish i posted here more..........

man i'm so frustrated right now

i usually try my best not to yap in my art account (maybe it's the wrong way to go idk) but i am just so tired of AI bullshit i can't

thank you!!!

it's just very depressing to start over rn man i can't lie

i know numbers shouldn't be everything but all those effort and years of posting, cool moments and mutual interactions makes it really hard to let go.......

welcome pak!!

'nother commision work

SU-27 x client OC (markov)

commision work

@aaronho.bsky.social 's tomo x EA-18 Growler

no rest allowed for the wicked

thank you!!

birb photo study

original photo is from @nickraschke.bsky.social ! really cool framing ngl

bg photo study

thank you!!!

mmm it's mostly just to replicate how a human area looks there

obv it's also for goonin, in the lore sofia isn't rlly capable of eating so the butthole currently does nothing lol