uh oh spaghettio, my period is in 7 days and it feels like i haven’t eaten in 3 days, even though i had half a sandwich for dinner last night

Its so embarrassing to have a body

i need to go throw up my food about this, even though i haven’t eaten yet

how can someone be your ‘bsf’ if you barely even talk to them?? and it’s not like we didn’t try with her because we did. we miss her. all the fucking time. but we can’t trust her to be there for us anymore and that fucking hurts.

i hate that one of my first thoughts of the day is ALWAYS “what are we doing for food today??? or ARE we doing food today??”

gonna seduce someone's nasty ass white grandpa until my name is on the will and i have control over his medical decisions.

i feel like one of us did a bad thing. but no one can think of what it could be. but whatever it is, is the reason why everyone hates us right now

got about 10 miles in yesterday. i think we’ll cap at 9 today. i would like to do more. but today has overstimulated everyone and the littles are really upset, so i think we’ll call it a night

i think one of my friends hates me and i hate myself

by the time i got back and had another hot chocolate, i was ready for bed. and i slept for 9hrs 🙌

yesterday was actually pretty good. i had hot chocolate for breakfast, did my laundry, went to an appointment, folded everything and put it away, walked downtown to treat myself to the perfume i wanted, walked back to get tenders for dinner, did some reading and smoking, and talked to my mom.

we ended up falling asleep due to barely sleeping the night prior. the body was not having it. but we have everything sorted and bagged up now. if we get it done and go to our appointment, we’re going to buy us a new perfume 🙏💕

dogs’ baby teeth are so tiny and adorable

I hate when I go out in public and the public is there

we showered today for the first time in three days. this depression is hitting so hard. we absolutely HAVE to do laundry tomorrow and i genuinely don’t know how we’re gonna pull it together enough to get it done

we just paced around our room for literally 45 seconds just so that we could hit an even 13 miles for the day haha

i decided to treat myself today because a really scary thing happened yesterday and i do not feel okay about it. i picked up an ayrloom pen and an 8th of gumdrop haze. it’ll be my first time trying either and i’m excited and hope it get really really high.

nothing ever feels real or safe

I hate conservatives <3

i needed a feel good thing, so i’m trying mexican hot chocolate for the first time. i thoroughly enjoy it. it’s much more cozy than the regular kind

chat is it gay to love your friends

i just had a BPD mini meltdown 🥲

i definitely don’t miss that part of it. but without one, i feel as if i have no purpose. who am i supposed to love? myself?? yuck!! 🤢

Oh to be a drunk raccoon passed out in a Virginia liquor store bathroom

sobbing because i hate who i am. i hate this life.

getting lax but it’s okay because i have permission

i might relapse into sh tonight and i’m not sure how i feel about it

my depression makes it so that i can’t exercise or get out of bed. it also makes it so that i don’t eat. the struggle to drink water will always baffle me. it’s been right next to me all day, i can’t bring myself to drink it though

as a person with BPD, not being able to have an fp right now feels horrible.

i just wish i had someone to talk to that i could count on to be there