hi. the hell site is even more unusable than usual rn.

oh that's fun. this period decided to be one of those occasional Straight From Hell kinda ones. love being cold, sweaty, shaking and nauseous while cramps make me reconsider the whole not killing myself thing.

i worked 2 full days and one half day this week and i'm exhausted but i can't even really sleep in tomorrow because i got a blood test and a job coach appointment that i did not prepare for. and i wanna go swimming afterwards too 🥲

basically i'm just not a fun person.

evolved version of people thinking i'm a gamer because i spent a lot of time online, even though the only games i have ever enjoyed were rollercoaster tycoon and barbie riding club. i could not be less interested.

i get the well meaning advice to join a board game club to make friends a lot for someone who fucking hates board games. get that fucking dice away from me or so help me god.

i feel so light and free!!

popped a pimple in the corner of my mouth so now for the next week people gonna think i have a cold sore yay

forgot i actually deleted duolingo from my phone yesterday so i just reached for my phone to do my lesson lol. need a new app i guess.

if my devout catholic grandma was still alive easter monday brunch would have taken a turn i can tell you that much

i had been ignoring it for as long as i could because the 8.1 -> 10 free upgrade traumatized me and i'm convinced it was responsible for wrecking my laptop at the time. i'm glad everything seems to be ok, but i don't love the look of it. 10 was prettier.

my laptop had been screaming at me about updates for a few days, so yesterday i thought i'd let it do that before i went to bed. but it was taking a very long time and i was tired so i went to bed.

anyway, now i have windows 11.

idk why my dad thought i was out either so i fear i need to put their alcohol down the drain

mum calls me downstairs for dinner. i answer i'll be there soon.

my dad who doesn't hear me 'cause he's in the living room: i thought she'd gone out?
my mum calling out again: sarah are you out??

GIRL DID YOU NOT LITERALLY JUST HEAR ME ANSWER YOU? WHO DID YOU THINK ANSWERED??🤨😭

random 2 weeks of nothing in the middle of my job placement that's supposed to make me get used to working life again

education sector is so funny what do you mean even the administration has 2 weeks off for break

i've used udpp every work day for the last two months and that stuff LASTS meanwhile milani (which i've only used on light makeup days since re-purchasing udpp) looks a mess after only a few hours.

the internet is full of lies.

last year when i ran out of urban decay primer potion i bought milani's eyeshadow primer because the internet told me it was just as good if not better for a much cheaper price.

anyway today i'm glad to have used up the last drop of that shit and we're back to udpp and i will never stray again.

i miss the early internet. people were like “you gotta see this dude. this cat sure is long.” and they were right. it was really long. it never shoulda gotten any more complicated than that.

picture of my orange white cat dozing off while lounging on a soft blanket on my bed

emma 💖 i'm good but my post therapy job placement really has me dead tired all the time and i feel like i'm missing everything and everyone. here's a picture of rowan being even sleeper than i am.

chrome forced an update that turns off ublock which i noticed immediately because the first video i tried to watch was preceded by a long ad for m&m's. turned that shit back on right away which thankfully still works, apparently it has been deleted from the chrome store. fuck google.

picture of my orange white cat rowan looking sleepy and bored

cat who would rather starve than touch his wet food lately (dw he's fine, just picky and special)

posting a 2 and a half hours long video this late in the evening is insane but this week's background noise while doing my makeup is sorted.

my mom is apparently so far away from planet earth she just asked when i was gonna start my job experience placement. i started two weeks ago. not hurtful at all.

instagram keeps putting anti blake lively content into my algorithm and i find it sus as hell. i've read comments on like two posts to see if anyone was pushing back against those unhinged weirdos but it's just complete madness. like amber heard all over again.

my own fault for not just leaving 2 weeks ago asfdkglhj i did already say goodbye in the group chat but it's rude to not say goodbye in person and not everyone is in the chat anyway so yeah

i'm really gonna go wake up early, do makeup and dress cute, just to go to the therapy group tomorrow for a quick 5 minute goodbye and then leave again lmaoooo

he was so round today

thank you charlotte 💖

thanks babes 💖