Struggling. Need a break. I want to fight. I want to stand up. Unfortunately, the suicidal thoughts are strong right now & I can't fight the good fight if I'm not in a healthy place. I'll be back eventually, but I'm signing off. Just remember, in the immortal words of Flava Flav, "Fight the Power".
I chose:
* LC - he's short, but he comes with a weapon. I've always said, the shorter they are, the meaner they are
* the Noid - his chaos alone would just be enough to distract & confuse. I love chaos
* JGG - He can stomp on everyone
* Big Boy - he's solid. He's gonna be hard to hurt.
One of the first things Hitler did was destroy and burn trans research at the Institute of Sexology.
Trump has spent the past couple weeks systematically attempting to erase any trans related information that he has power over.
Just for context, you know.
Support Canadian alternatives!
Here's a great creator who understands what it is like to not have a lot of money and needs to use a food pantry to help her family. She's pretty amazing imo.
www.tiktok.com/t/ZP8YLofjo/
Just in case you need another reminder of how tariffs work, @unlearn16.bsky.social explains it, again, very succinctly.
www.tiktok.com/t/ZP8YNAXbT/
The Americans who definitely did not vote for orange 💩ler and his cronies - especially those stuck living in red states:
Fazoli's seriously has no right to be as good as they are for as affordable as they are. Seriously. Why go to Olive Garden or Buca di Beppo when you can get better food for WAY less money.
If your neighbor looks at you like they don't enjoy the key you're singing in, look right back, bless them, and keep on singing.
- Odetta
#onelove #onepeople #iloveyou
It may not be much, but I found a little good in the world today. That makes it a good day.
So, I spent some money supporting my fellow queers, met an amazing human, and helped get the dopamine my brain so desperately needed.
I am back at home, in my chill corner with the door closed, and just basking in the silence and joy, peace, and acceptance I felt today.
He has told them that, if they could find the "Republican Jesus," he would listen to them. The people would walk away.
That man seriously had me almost to tears because I felt his genuine love and acceptance. I needed that today.
I, also, met an amazing man (his name was Dave; so wish I would have gotten a selfie) who was a former pastor. He commented on how he loved my hoodie. We spoke about how so many "Christians" get so angry when pastors teach the words that Jesus spoke, that those words are now considered "woke".
I went to a fiber festival today in Noblesville. It was small, a bit crowded, but it helped lift my mood so much.
There were a couple of queer-owned vendors (I bought the yarn from both).
I love you, too, my child.
When I was younger, I loved the snow. Now, it is my enemy in the winter. The only thing I hate more than snow is ice, which is my absolute, bane-of-my-existance, mortal enemy.
Please stay safe and warm.
I already know what it's like to be abandoned and utterly alone. Why stay alive when you know that is going to be the only constant in your life.
I am done.
I am ready to die and/or avoid attachment altogether because I don't want to lose anything else. I am tired of grieving. I am tired of feeling utterly alone. My thoughts, the constant static in my head are just too much anymore.
Until you would rather die, or kill, or avoid attachments altogether, than lose one more thing." N.K. Jemisin, The Obelisk Gate (The Broken Earth, #2)
"There is such a thing as too much loss. Too much has been taken from you both - taken & taken & taken, until there's nothing left but hope, & you've given that up because it hurts too much. ...
I have, utterly, lost all hope. There is no point of feeling hope in a world destined to be ran by despots, oligarchs, nazis, the most vile & despicable "people" on the planet. I found this quote and I think it is the closest I have found to how I am truly feeling:
I have had bouts of suicidal idiations in the past, but none of those times have lasted this long or have been as intense as what what is happening in my brain at this time. The darkness has completely enveloped me.
I am not okay. I'm really not. I am not sure who I can trust. I don't fully trust anyone right now - partners, family (especially my mom with aligns herself with the current regime), friends - anyone at all.
I am back to being suicidal again. I mean, what's the point of living when the government is going to do everything in their power to take your life anyway. Why not go out on your own terms? I mean, either way, they still killed you, but at least the latter gave you a say in how & when it happened.
I fucking hate Indiana. I fucking hate Indianapolis! How in the hell was this not on the news?!?! How was this not publicized at all?!?! Watching this sent chills down my spine. I wish I would have known. I wish I could have been there.
www.tiktok.com/t/ZP8Y8ywef/
If you are someone with a huge following and support Trans rights, you NEED to start using your voice, SCREAM FROM THE ROOFTOPS, to help Trans people stay safe.
www.tiktok.com/t/ZP8Y8HjTy/
Can anyone answer @unlearn16.bsky.social's questions for her because I sure as hell can't anymore. I'm just as confused as her students.
www.tiktok.com/t/ZP8Y8MHRy/
I'm actually going to celebrate it by going with my fiancé to a hockey game to, hopefully, watch grown men fight and, possibly, play hockey. Violence on Valentine's Day. The appropriate way to say I love you.
😅😂🤣😂😅
But n@z!s aren't in control of the Caucasian house of the regime?! Imma gonna call bullshit!! Our country is now full of racist, misogynistic, white xtian n@z! extremists. Fuck the n@z!s!!!
