i need to treat it like a job. like ernie goes to work and I go to the desk (or the library) and lock the fuck in. will I? or will I just go to the cinema at 12pm

telling myself i will use my imminent unemployment to really get ahead of my papers I have to write and proposals for more papers and maybe actually write for my substack. as if I won't in fact so something crazy like watch all 481 episodes of NCIS or whatever

see this is why i need to be over here. great content

Astrophotography from rural France :)

shout out to the jew next to me on the dlr reading chabad . org. shaking your hand

shout out to my bathroom which I reorganised a bit earlier, for the attention of nobody but myself. Ernie won't be able to tell anything has changed but I feel a hundred bucks about it

great news everyone. I followed up with the next extract and it was heartbreakingly raw and vulnerable and I believe once again that lesbins were writing some lesbian pulp fiction. what a relief

each morning I read an extract of a different influential lesbian pulp fiction novel. we will never know the real identities of most of these authors. I can, however, say confidently that a cis man wrote the one I just got through

there's a lesbian pulp fiction book in the library and i know it is there and i lowkey can't stop thinking about it

anyway. the good news is I got accepted into the Dracula conference as a speaker and also that I got asked to cover a friend's job while he's on medical leave at the museum. the bad news is I will be working 6 days a week for 7 weeks

THANKS to my spotify shuffle for just putting on 'please please please let me get what I want' while I wistfully stare out the window of my tube

we have 3 days off for sweden and then I am currently set to work the entirety of the rest of december into Jan. I forgot this aspect of hospitality, especially as a supervisor. Ernie is off for 2 weeks and we will be home together for exactly 1 of those days

that time of year again ... googling how to cure burnout in 1 day because I have work again tomorrow

chef told me yesterday that my eyeshadow is very pretty and today tells me i am more attractive every day. fellas (gn), is my chef a chaser?

[flirting] Who's your favorite horseman of the apocalypse?

my original draft is VERY long and i have dreams of putting up a substack for it eventually

THANKS FOR COMING EVERYONE

i've changed my shirt three times and propped up my laptop on several library books. I'm gonna make some tea immediately beforehand. this is fine

you nailed it!!!!

i am countering this by showing up at the night cafe at midday and intending to stay until at least one of these things (terror camp) is finished, as long as it takes. my shift the next day is 9:30am i could be in that cafe for 12 hours

tomorrow is my last real bit of time before terror camp and also the ffe deadline and im very stressed about it thanks for asking!

is it not enough to write two or more men fucking in explicit, vulgar detail? must there be an obligatory paper thin plot?

This is how you become a writer: just pick one of the things that is deeply wrong with you. Make it a character. Now send it on a self-help journey or try to kill it. Now call it a book.

Woman about to thwack man with hammer

"You Seem to Have Some Knowledge of This Topic So Let Me Butt in With the First Result From a Google Search, Text From Wikipedia and... What is the Hammer For?" by Artemisia Gentileschi

AND a paper to finish putting slides to in a comedic manner

ernie read what i currently have of my FFE and says 'it feels like it's barely started' you can't say that i have only a week left

my lovely lovely colleague at work asking me 'did you get your card'. No!!!! Because I'm NOT SUPPOSED TO KNOW ABOUT IT YET

thank you 😭😭

save me pocari sweat (too much red wine at the play)

WELLLLLL IF I MUST