im so tired

~ you wanna waste the day, I wanna spend the night ~

walked out of my emdr session extremely puffy and then immediately spent $10 on a matcha sakura latte, $15 on a vegan sandwich, and $7 on a cup of tomato soup that i definitely didn't want but it's fine

why did that fix my brain

3.2 mile run in the books ‼️ did it in 50 min too

planning my longest run ever today so we shall see how that goes

last few weeks have been super rough. darker thoughts and loss of motivation to do anything. frequent exhaustion and crying. increasing feeling of being misunderstood and like something is 'wrong' with me. typical solutions (friends, going outside, writing) less effective

me on a 3 hour Peter Pan bus

Finished reading a book about the fishing industry and promptly got 4 more books on food industry practices. Eating meat/fish less and less now… :-)

“The unthinkable is something we carry with us always. It has already happened: we are improbable, we have emerged from a cloud of unbelievable coincidences. Anyone would think that this knowledge would equip us in some small way to face the improbable. But the opposite appears to be the case…”

Sometimes I don’t even believe myself when I say I run.. me ??? never.. and yet..

I did it again (sobbed in therapy and then ran 2 miles)

I feel so 😖😖😖

I’ve been finally using my dumbphone on the weekends and it has transformed my brain

getting hit with the urge to commit unspeakable horrors… make a Zine

fresh yogurt, freddo cappuccinos, athena love dion .. im actually not in a chinese time of my life im greek now

almost sobbed in therapy and then did my first 2 mile run yesterday somehow..? idk how anything works sigh

Got my hair cut (1 week overdue tbh) and a new wallet : )

brb shedding a tear on the street at this fanzine of entirely trans artists when I’ve never even seen a single movie in this franchise..

IM… “there is no shortage of people who live in cycles of continuous longing for what isn’t present. They become unable to navigate the obstacles that stand between themselves and fulfillment, locked in stagnant misery.”

I’ve been trying to read more nonfiction and randomly found this study into 17-18th century queer literature.. it’s been dense but v fascinating!! it uses lit to explore when the idea of ‘closeting’ and formation of queerness as identity may have actually begun. and also I thought this was funny

i’m tired of hanging out with people and doing so many things :/ burned myself out and now I’m a Slug .. with some soup

bought a print I had been wanting for a long time but couldnt find anywhere online but I foun it organically yay ya

Good day 👍